~Ular~

 Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Semalam mimpi ngeri.. mimpi diserang 3 ekor ular...

ular pertama tu warna hitam kuning... yg paling berbisa tu..dalam mimpi tu, ular tu liar & ganas.. dia patuk kepala belah kiri saya.. terasa macam real ok.. dengan rasa bisa ular tu menular ke seluruh badan sekali.. masa tu punya la kuat semangat & geram, ntah dari mana keberanian saya dtg, saya pegang ular tu, saya tarik sekuat hati badan dia, sampai putus dua.. giler kentang berani kannnn... huhu..so, lepas ular tu mati, saya dlm keadaan lemah & pening cuba cari bantuan.. bgtau along..cuba call ambulans sendiri.. tekan 999 ok..hahhaha

tetiba dalam keadaan lemah tu, datang pulak ular kedua.. warna putih hijau kot.. i can't remember..  tapi just tekan & penyet dengan kaki sampai ular tu pengsan.. pastu adik laki letak mana ntah, pastu ilang.. agaknya ular tu baru tersedar dari pengsan kot..hahahahaa

ular ketiga ular lidi..halus & laju gerakan dia..tapi ular ni macam acah je.. bila dekat, dia lari balik..huhu

walau apa pun, serius saya jadi fobia dgn luar..it's so scary ok..even hanya mimpi tapi rasa nyawa di hujung tanduk, rasa takut sangat..yela... rasa x ready lagi nak mati.. banyak dosa & x sempat bertaubat lagi.. masa tu ingat Allah SWT je.. :(

orang kata kalau mimpi kena patuk ular, org nak masuk meminang, kawen & etc.. tu org org tua cakap la.. tapi kalau org agama, dorang cakap kalau mimpi binatang berbisa ni berkait dgn sihir.. Nauzubillahiminzalik..  semoga saya dijauhkan daripada perkara-perkara tu.. takut... hmmmmmm

~ April Life~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Kalau perasan, bulan ni paling jarang update pasal my current life.. *yeke?? :P*.. ihiks.. i'm so busy you alls.. rasa sekejap sgt masa berlalu.. sedar x sedar, esok dah half of April.. huwarggghhh!! *panik state tetiba..haha*.. risau pasal study.. risau psl life sendiri.. i olls masih tunggang terbalik ni menjalani hari-hari yg penuh cabaran.. gitewww..

About study, half of the month, mcm xde progress sgt.. hari tu busy betulkan proposal baru semua.. InsyaAllah, this tuesday will go to KA (my sampling site) again.. bawak balik leachate sample & hey, maybe dah boleh start for the first objective, which are the charactristics & suitable dosage of lime/caustic soda for ammonia removal.. hopefully this April-Mei, will accomplished first objectives.. Jun-Julai interprete result.. August-Sept writing paper/journals.. Semoga urusan dipermudahkan.. hajatnya sepanjang bulan puasa & raya nak duk umah je..bahahaha.. Amin.. :)

 Pasal current personal life,  nothing interesting too.. rutin harian, dari pagi kul 9am to 4 or 5pm akan berada di lab.. biasanya awal pagi or petang after 5pm akan meletihkan diri dgn jogging @ tennis with love.. *gitewww.. xyah ingat kami ni sweet sgt.. ada pengikut setia Naim Abdullah..haha..main tenis 3 org, gilir-gilir..sape penat bleh rest..org lain continue main.. rasanya skill kami bertiga dalam bidang tennis telah diasah dgn baik.. getting better everyday.. xdak la duk pukul sekali & then terus kutip bola je kann.. hehe* 

Last week start asing2 proposal ikut chapter da.. bila da menaip thesis ni, rasa x sabarnya nak grad...bahahaha.. padahal project non hado result & lab work lagi..kihkih.. xpe, semangat itu yg penting.. :D

Pasal hati & perasaan, sedang renovate myself.. hmmmm.. yg ni rahsia..heee.. past is past.. life must go on.. i think i have to make peace with my past so that i can continue & go on with my new life.. after what happened this 2 weeks, rasanya hati da tetap & mungkin ni takdir yg terbaik.. for me, senang je.. if something is meant for you, no matter how far, how long time it would takes, it will get a way back to you.. now, just go with the flow.. & there's no turning back anymore.. & if Allah SWT ease my way, i think it's really meant for me.. :)

This weekend, i'm busy with shopping..teheheee.. mama datang KL for her Pandu Puteri event.. going out with Mr. Fiancee & me.. pickup mama at airport, staying at hotel for a night, went to Ikea with mama (tercapai hajat nak bawak mama jalan2 ikea.. she's in love with the food & bantal lembut..haha.. duk borong bantal & selimut.. tapi mama letih so xley jalan byk2..hehe).. after that, hantar mama pegi kat abah kat De Palma Ampang (abah dtg meeting) & transfer barang2 kirim bawak balik Terengganu for Along's event soon..hehe.. me yg super duper terlebih excited sbb nanti nak buat candy buffet cantik2 & boleh promote kat customer.. yeay!! hopefully after the event, rezeki akan bertambah masyuk.. Amin.. *orang nak kawen, harus berusaha gigih mengumpul duit..ihiks*

And today, after pickup choc fondue from my friend, me & fiancee kinda blurr nak buat apa today.. decide nak pegi Mid Valley.. da gerak sampai KL tapi disebabkan GPS x boleh guna, batang hidung Mid Valley mmg x nampak..hahaha..so, patah balik serdang, pegi makan KFC kat Petronas 24 hours..hehe.. kelakar sangat..lepas makan try buka GPS mmg x boleh.. so cadang kat fiancee, kalau x pegi Mid Valley, jom pegi GM Plaza Klang sbb da lama teringin nak pegi sana.. orang cakap barang kahwin murah2..this is the perfect time to survey everything.. *hajatnya nak survey jela..kahkahkah..* so excited la pegi bukak google map by online.. mujur ada hp canggih fiancee.. haha.. rupanya senang sgt nak pegi GM Plaza Klang.. naik highway, straight je ikut signboard ke Klang.. lepas ni boleh pegi dengan kawan-kawan pula..haha

Apa yang saya boleh komen pasal GM Plaza ialah BEST!! it's a heaven for a big spender like me.. *jangan korang salah paham pulak..haha*.. i mean, semua barang kalau borong, semua murah gila ok..i olls pulak jenis yg pemboros.. berkenan je, terus angkut.. gigih tau kitorang explore 4 tingkat kat GM Plaza Klang tu..hahaha.. atas sekali banyak barang pengantin..mmg murah.. baru je sabtu lepas beli dulang hantaran kerawang silver RM 24.90 kat satu kilang area Balakong, tanya amoi yg kat GM Plaza tadi RM15 je each.. menyampah i olls.. dah banyak rugi di situ...hmmm.. bunga telur design pon cantek2.. me minat yang gantung2 tu.. ihiks.. tapak gantung RM22 je each.. kalau beli 2, x smpai RM50.. murah OK.. murah dari Nilai lagi..  Bunga telur pon yg cantek giler RM3/pcs.. affordable.. tgk macam2 warna, sudahnya saya buta warna.. warna tema wedding tak decide lagi ni..haha.. plg penting tarikh wedding pun xdak lagi.. well, i olls kan suka buat keje last minute..hihi.. bertunang aritu pon a month before baru plan.. yg kawen x tau la..haha.. besides, kat sini macam macam ada.. handphone ada.. barang rumah ada.. paling banyak baju kanak2 & mainan..accessories.. tadi banyak jugak tgk gaun kanak-kanak & tuxedo kanak-kanak..ada yang harga RM50++.. RM80++.. yg penting less than RM100 & cantik2 ok.. dah berangan dgn fiancee utk majlis kitorg bagi my cousin & anak-anak sedara dia pakai..kahkahkah..dah berangan tu yg plg xley blah.. :P

brooch bunga yg 1 biji RM5 tu pun dalam RM1-2.. Baju t shirt lelaki yg kain best RM25 for 6 pcs (original price RM50).. baju pompuan tak payah cakap la.. RM100 -3 helai ada.. jubah + dress cantik2 RM50 pun ada.. peplum macam2 paten harga RM 29-37 sehelai, beli borong lagi murah pon ada.. rambang mata.. design baju mmg latest & up to date.. tudung lagi laa..bawal chiffon 2 layer sgt cantik tapi sbb xde yg match baju, maka x beli..haha.. Actually, tak expect pon GM Plaza ada semua ni..i thought jual barang pengantin je..kehkeh.. maka bukan barang pengantin yg i olls beli, tapi barang peribadi which are skirt, peplum, dress, seluar, cardigan, halfmoon shawl, baju fiancee, & etc.. melayang lagi fulus.. $$$$$.. menanges tgk angka dalam bank..haha T_T

p/s: dah berhajat nak bawak family, mama, abah, along, adik, pak sdare, mak sdare, toki, tok & seumpamanya datang sini..hehe.. shopping sini better than Nilai & Chow Kit.. kepada bakal pengantin, sila kunjungi GM Plaza.. recommended.. tapi anda kena pandai survey & buat pilihan..certain item macam doorgift ada yg kat internet lagi murah.. so jadilah pembeli yang bijak.. :)

~Puisi~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

 

 

Terasa sakit ketika kita menginginkan
seseorang tapi kita tidak bisa
memilikinya..
.
Akan tetapi, lebih sakit lagi ketika kita
memiliki seseorang yang kita inginkan
dan kemudian kehilanganya..
.
Terlambat sudah untuk membenihi
kisah cinta kita.

Di saat kau menulisnya dengan sebuah pensil.
Sedangka­n aku menulisnya dengan tinta yang tak bisa terhapus..

~ Hurt~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Being broken is always a part of being inlove and it hurts a lot.. Yet we don’t have the right to blame that person.. Pain is painful but it can be healed by time and acceptance.. Just bear in mind that someday, everything will make a sense.. For now, smile through the tears, let go, forgive and pray.. For whatever pain you have now, nothing is impossible if God is with you. :)

~Redha dengan Takdir Allah SWT~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Macam mana nak redha atas kehilangan sesuatu/ menerima sesuatu yg sememangnya bukan ditakdirkan untuk jadi milik kita? i just found this & it is perfect.. 

"Percaya tak, kalau kita dah memang ditakdirkan untuk seseorang, kita pasti takkan dapat menjauhi takdir itu dengan apa cara sekalipun.. Bercinta selama mana pun dengan orang lain, pasti akan putus.. Kalau ada orang masuk meminang pun pasti ada halangan dan tak tercapai.. Even, kalau kita cuba nak jauhkan diri dari dia pun pasti takkan ke mana.."

"Takdir tu kuasa Allah.. Dalam pengetahuan Allah.. Dan kita hanya akan tahu bila Allah mengizinkannya.. Doa dan terus berdoa selagi mana kita belum tahu ditakdirkan untuk siapa.."

Ya.. kenyataan.. faced the reality hani.. it's just impossible.. for the sake of everybody, you have to let go.. free yourself.. :')

DIBALIK KESULITAN ADA KEMUDAHAN



Ketika kamu tetap tersenyum, meskipun merasa sakit...
Ketika kamu tetap memberi, meskipun tak pernah dibalas...

Ketika kamu tetap ceria, meskipun terluka...
Ketika kamu tetap diam, meskipun perih...

Dan ketika kamu bahagia, meskipun kehilangan....
Di situlah ketulusan hati sedang diuji...

Kesedihan mengajarkan tentang indahnya kebahagiaan...
Seperti juga sakit, mengajarkan tentang nikmatnya sehat...
Dan apabila sakit, Allah SWT yang menyembuhkannya. ..

Seringkali kita berputus asa tatkala mendapatkan kesulitan atau cobaan..
Padahal Allah SWT telah memberi janji bahwa di balik kesulitan ada kemudahan, 
pasti ada jalan keluar yang begitu dekat...

:')

#True indeed.. life is uncertain.. anything can happen.. do not put so much hope on something that is still unconfirmed..have faith in Allah.. because He had the greatest plan & reasons for everything that happened in our life before, now & in future..#

~ Let Go~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

this song is for you.. you know who are you.. 

i'll move on..

this is for the sake of us & everybody..

~ Escape~

 Hi & Assalamualaikum...

This few days, a lot of things came across  my mind, & i feel a little bit stress.. yessss.. STRESS.. i think it's a normal syndrome for those who's getting married rite..  i do get stress because i've to think & decide the most important decision in my life... 4 things i've been thinking a lot lately.. 

1. MONEY $$$$$$$$$$$

yup.. money is the most problematic one.. ada duit stress, xde duit pun stress..hahaha..  funny! when we don't have money, we'll get stress thinking on how to get the money.. when we already got the money, we'll get stress on how to spend the money wisely & control the cash flows.. seriously, rasa duit mengalir macam air je..... bayar hutang semua, brape sgt la tinggal.. then, fikir kena saving utk beli kereta & kawen lagi... ohh money!! it's true that money is not everything, but everything needs money okay.. ada duit pun kena blajar saving & ikat perut dari sekarang... moga2 duit tersimpan & badan pun makin kurus.. aminnnnnn....

2. CAR

2nd problem is that, should i buy a car or not??? you know, living in a big university like UPM, it's very very hard to move everywhere without having a transport.. it's true that now i'm living in hostel & just can walk to the campus & lab, but how i'm going to survive if i dont have money & i want to go to the bank? how i can go to GSO, HEP, & etc if there's a problem i need to solve? it's true my fiancee is around but sometimes he wasn't around.. balik kampung etc.. dah la bangun tgh hari, kalau nak minta tlg anta pegi lab yg dekat ujung dunia tu pun malas...so, rela dtg awal pagi jalan kaki ke lab.. at least there's something i can do.. most of the time i've to depend on him.. beli groceries & everything.. orang ingat kami ni suka berkepit agaknya..tapi hakikatnya hanya diri sendiri je tau.. nak pegi mana-mana, amek barang, kena minta tlg..kadang2 kena paksa ikut kerenah diri ni.. sampai at one point, i was bored looking at him everyday.. hahaha.. this is true.. tau x ape perasaan, nak pegi mana2 terpaksa minta tolong & berharap pada orang lain selalu? dah la nak kena deal dulu semua.. susah nak bergerak dgn sendiri.. i'm an independent person, & i rather to walk alone or by myself.. rasa pergerakan agak restricted & i really hate this situation.. plus i'm going to do business soon, so of course i need to move a lot.. nak angkut barang-barang balik hometown lagi.. sampai bila nak harap kat en.tunang? but considering to buy a car, i need to think more broad.. about the monthly payment, services, fuel charge & etc.. buying a car, means i can't save money.. since i'm planning to get married, i do need to save a lot of money. unless i married next year, & maybe then i can save money for weddings.. so that's why i'm still in consideration of having a car..sigh! coz i feel like i need a car really bad..

3. WEDDING/MARRIAGE

The third things i've been thinking lately is about my wedding.. we haven't decided a date yet.. it supposedly in November 2013.. but with the current condition we faced (financial problems, study, research) both of us having rite now, it might be postponed to next year i guess.. maybe i get married along with my sister.. 2 brides in 1 wedding ceremony...Preparation wedding orang yang dah bekerja dgn orang yg belajar, it's a very very difference.. Once you dah bekerja, money isn't seem a big problem.. you may got a loan & etc..plus gaji orang yg dah bekerja sgt banyak if nak compared dgn gaji RA/GRF.. but for us who still studying, we can't save the money much .. & of course we can't do loan & whatsoeva.. we need money for our research too..if dapat full parental support, or brother/sister support, the wedding preparation will not a biggie probs for you.. lucky you.. but in my situation, i know my parent financial well (my parent wasn't that rich to support my wedding, they have other 3 children to support, & they didn't have any inherited money@ wealth from my ancestors), & i need to collect & save money alone, without hoping any cent from them.. if possible, i won't touch their money at all.. so just imagine how much i need to collect on my own? i won't just hoping on the scholarship i got, cause it wasn't enough.. that's why i'm trying to find another alternative to get money, which is by candy buffet, guestbook & photobooth business.. i'm just starting..i hope i'll get good feedback soon.. saya telah berusaha, the rest i left to Allah SWT.. i don't know whether this is some kind of test, a sign, or whatever, but I know Allah SWT plan is the best.. He has the reason why on what's happening to me.. *soal hati x perlu cerita..tetttt*

4. STUDY

The last problem is study.. there's not much progress of my research yet since i just changed my proposal.. my target is to finish CHAPTER 1 & CHAPTER 2.. & slowly write for paper/journals for the first objectives.. since a lot of things not complete for me to do the experiment, i need to wait for the suppliers quotation & etc.. needs to find chemicals & instrument.. hopefully there are some 'progress' for me in this 2nd SEM.. & i want to get married at least when i achieved the first objective of the study or have a progress.. expected in Oktober & upwards..hopefully.. do pray for me instead.. Aminn..

and because of all these problems, i do think that i really need a space for myself...in a calm & beautiful place.. i feel like i wanna have a sweet escape without having to worry about anything....i need to be calm & find my own self again.. i need to rest & have a vacation for myself..alone...

ada jugak karang balik hostel packing-packing baju & go wherever i want..

i always dream to have an adventurous journey.. alone.. 

in a places i've ever known..

baru thrill kan?? :P

till then, bye bye & take care..