~ Forgotten Promises~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

It's Jumaat.. let's Al-Kahf.. 

Anyway, i just bumped into one of Sami Yusuf video in youtube.. & i fall for the song instantly.. Sami Yusuf voice is very good & calm to listen to.. i love the music arrangement.. do take a look at this video.. it will open our eyes to see the world out there.. It just awesome..a very unique song.. Please understand & get the message instead.. no word can describe this feeling.. Allah SWT.. :')

~Tak Perlu~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Minggu yang agak stress & busy.. hehe.. sebenarnya saja nak sibukkan diri.. pura-pura busy walau entah pape yg dibuatnya..haha...

jom motivate diri sikit.. Tak nak melagha sangat melayan perasaan... ;)

tak perlu ok.. nanti dia datang sendiri.. senyum.. (^_^)

~Feel Blessed~

Hi & Assalamualaikum.. 

Alhamdulillah.. i feel so blessed day by day..  Since i moved on, there's so many things that changed in my life.. how i see the future.. how i see the world.. not only with my two eyes, but i see it with my heart.. Everything that i do in my life everyday now, i'll think about Allah SWT.. i'm not saying that i'm a good person.. i'm not saying that i'm a religious person.. not reach that level yet.. but i did try to be a good person, although i'm not that good.. i did want to change my life to the better of course.. because all this while, i do bad to people.. i did lie.. i make sins.. & by being alone now, i'll always reflect myself.. thinking how bad i am before.. 

So, i started to be good to people.. talk to the people first..be more friendly.. help any people in trouble.. by making others happy, i'm also happy.. i don't know why, but i feel so blessed.. i want to tell a story.. not to be proud of myself... but it is something that we can ponder in our life.. 

This story is related to money since money is very important in our life.. since i'm single now, i did own a lot of money compared to normal students.. but i'm a big spender you know.. i can finished more than 1k per day for shopping.. & then i'll realized, 'where's my money?' when i look at the amount in the bank had been reduced drastically...hahahaha.. well, girls & shopping cannot be separated..but since i've a new responsibility which is having a car, i do need to manage my money well as i've to paid RM 559/month..i also need to start budget the fuel cost after this..  & then have to pay hostel fee.. so, with lot of responsibilty currently, i become less spender.. i'll buy according to the current needs only..hehe..

Last friday, i sent my mom & adik to Pudu Sentral.. they were going to Kuantan after signing the loan agreement to visit my uncle, who had been operated for brain tumor on 17/6/13.. so at the Pudu Sentral, we went to a bookstore.. my mom & i have the same hobby.. which is reading malay novels.. so we choose what we want.. i asked her to take any novels she wanted.. when we're done, i asked her, is it enough as i'm going to queue & pay.. my mom said, she will pay for her novels.. i said, it's ok.. i paid for them all.. i rarely do something with my family.. so i think it's ok if once in a while to buy them something.. i hope by doing this, i'll make my mom happy.. even a little bit.. & i believe and have faith in Allah SWT that He will give me more things that i ever need in future.. the end..

the next story, there's a friend of mine having money problem lately as she's waiting for her salary.. i did tell her before, if she need my help, i'm willing to help her.. i know how hard it is being a student without money.. money is the major problems for student who's pursuing master/PhD.. so, i did give a little help to her.. helping people who are in need is the most amazing feeling in my heart..it can't be describe.. Allah SWT had granted her pray for help through me... &  i'm glad i've been chosen by Allah SWT to help her.. 

You know what.. the more i spend my money on others, the more money/rezeki Allah SWT gives to me.. that's why now i never worry about money.. i've spend my money on whoever i like.. my sis.. my family.. my friends.. since i was  a kid, i love to gives present to others, so that it can make them happy.. as i'm getting older, buying foods or presents is my hobby to make others happy.. regarding money, i have faith in Allah SWT.. all this while when i've money problems, Allah SWT will help me in such a way i couldn't even imagine.. like giving me projects on my business (suddenly there'll be customers who want to order huge amunt from me) & etc.. 

and today, when i open my CIMBCLICKS to buy top up, i was shocked to see more than 2k in my CIMB account instead of 300++.. i think it's the refund money from my last semester paid by MYBRAIN15.. Alhamdulillah, i feel so blessed.. now i can buy new laptop for my study.. Allah SWT did know when the right time to give you the best.. i feel so much blessed..

i'm happy with my life now.. i did wish to become a person with a big heart..who easily forgive others for their mistake..who is kind hearted to help others.. who has empathy to others..because i'm kinda selfish before.. never care of others feeling.. so, i did hope i can be a better person one day, insyaAllah.. 

Whatever it is, do have faith & believe in Allah SWT.. believe me, He will never disappoint you as every human did.. & whatever you need in life, just pray to Allah SWT.. He will granted it.. Doa is the greatest weapon.. any impossible thing will be possible with His willing.. whether it's now, later or in future.. He did know the best time to give it to you.. & if He didn't granted your wish/pray, it is because He had greater plan & greatest thing to give it to you.. :)

p/s: Happiness is feeling good about ourselves. To feel good do good, to do good be good. Once we do good we have good  - Prof Dr Muhaya

~Talking about dreams~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Current life is quite dull & boring.. i've no mood at all to focus on study these 2-3 weeks.. it's like my spirit had flew away to no where.. but i know, this is just for temporary.. i'm down a little bit regarding my research study and my personal life.. regarding my study, i still can't find what type of statistical analyses that should be used to present my data better..whether using some sort of software or just simple statistical analyses for instance ANOVA or linear regression.. haiyakkk.. a bit stress this week.. these 2-3 days learning statistics, try to understand its function..i hate maths & of course anything related to calculation..but since i've entered the engineering field, of course i can't run away from those things.. As for personal life, i'm still adapting with the transition.. i don't want to think about marriage & anything related to it.. even if i'm seeing a happy couple in front of me or seeing the picture of people getting married, how happy they are, i don't feel  anything..like getting jealous or desperately want to be like them one day.. seriously, i think i'm a heartless person right now.. i don't know why i become & behave like this, but maybe i've gone through a lot of pain in my relationship before, tired of hoping & trying my best maybe.. i think i grow stronger.. no more tears tickling down my cheeks.. hurt make people change.. i do agree with this fact..even i'm broken sometimes, i always encourage myself..thanks to family & friends who always support me in whatever i do & what i've decided..

And yeahhh!! i love my single life now.. no commitments..no heartache.. no tension thinking of money that i've to find & collected for getting married.. & i noticed that i became much more calm & happier.. even Kak Izu, my lab mate notice that i'm more happier compared to when i'm engaged with someone..hahaha.. well, i can feel that too.. i have no stress & tension at all right now.. my mind is free.. & i can do whatever i like & what i want in my life.. i have money & i can spend it for anything i love & i want.. and yeahhh.. i'm excited to list down all my dreams & wish that all of it will came true.. InsyaAllah.. & here is some of the dreams that i'll make it true:

1. Having own transport

Since i'm having transport problem, this is the most compulsary thing that i've to get to ease my life here in UPM.. & Alhamdulillah everything was settled last Friday.. now, just waiting for my new 'BABY' comes to its mama..hahaha.. can't wait.. Coz all this while, i've to depend on others to go everywhere.. It's quite hard.. you have to wait..wasting time..Please ease my way ya Allah SWT.. hopefully by next week, the car will be in my hand..Thank you Allah SWT for making one of my dream that i've waited for almost 24 years came true.. by having this precious thing, i knew then how to rock & roll my life.. ;)

2. Having smartphones

It's almost a year i'm not using any smartphones since my baby GIO broke down.. & last week, i've pampered myself with new smartphone by using rebate RM200.. i've got myself Stealth II (Ninetology).. Although this phone is not branded & well established like SAMSUNG, NOKIA, or SONY ERICSSON, i do love this phone much.. first, because it's cheap..since i've bought a new car, i need to budget my money.. that's why i didn't buy S4, Xperia Z & etc..& i don't like Blackberry.. i just have to add RM599 (original price is RM799) to own this phone.. & it have all the specifications that i want from a smartphone.. good looking (the design look like samsung galaxy grand and other expensive hp), have dual sim, great camera quality (8MP), sounds great for music (eventhough it can't challenge sony ericsson, still consider great..hehe), i've got free hp cover & free 8GB of memory card, when surfing the internet, it is fast.. so it's totally worth it rite? teheee.. & of course all smartphone have same problems.. battery couldn't last longer.. maybe i've to consider to buy powerbank after this..hehe

 my stealth II.. ;)

it looks cool isn't it? hehe

3. Sweet Escape / Short Vacation

And of course, with all the problems i've been through lately, i do feel like i need a sweet escape.. Anyone, 'Bawaku Pergi?' please?? teheheee.. last friday, while studying for statistics, suddenly me & kak izu accidentally 'googling' mydeals & groupon page.. kak izu have been travelled a lot around Malaysia & Inonesia.. she already explored half of the Indonesia..i think she already finished exploring the whole Malaysia..haha.. she also had been to Krabi (my dream place).. she had an experience of travelling backpacking...at the age of 28th & single, i do adore her life..she did know how to enjoy her life.. & i think i'll be okay when i'm single too.. hehe..there's so much things out there that we can explore and do together later.. waahhhh.. feel so excited..hehe.. we found that there's a lot of getaway deals at the pages.. i've always dream to getaway to some exclusive place near the beach.. doing load of works in such a calm please.. a nice & relax place to stay..& guess what?? both pages have deals for Gold Coast Morib Resort.. from RM584 to only RM168..  Package 2 day 1 nite during Weekdays.. stay in Studio Suite with attached jacuzzi..also includes buffet breakfast and theme park tickets.. so, let's enjoy the view of this place..hehe

 the theme park..

 view from top..

 on top also.. 

 beautiful isn't it?

 the condos..

 the beach.. waa..can't wait..hehe

i love beach scenery.. 

here some info about Gold Coast Morib:

Seaside Getaway in a Water Theme Park Resort

The sandy coastal bay of Morib lies at the edge of the getaway resort, fringed with lush forests that creep around the resort grounds with its modern and minimalist furnishings. Fixed with a deep Jacuzzi bathtub, the bathroom is part and parcel of the getaway experience, along with the cool polished tiles and plush beds. Meet childhood whims without restraint or reservations at the resort’s water theme park that features a collection of slides, pools, and a water canal that snakes around the fixtures.

Morib, Banting: A Quiet and Idyllic Seaside Township

Having played an important role in history as the landing point of the British and Indian Army liberation forces during World War II, Morib’s quiet beach is a far cry from its clandestine past. Soft sand lines the beach, greeting white foams that surge ashore from calm waters. The sleepy hollow of Banting lays a leisurely 20-minute drive from the resort, a small agricultural township with empty skies that traded towering high-rise buildings for stout double-storey shop lots and quaint, raucous motorcycles.

Studio Suite

• 45 sqm room
• King-sized or twin bedding
• Private bathroom with built-in Jacuzzi and hair dryer
• Safety deposit box and coffee and tea making facilities

Hotel facilities

• Restaurants
• Water theme park
• Complimentary Wi-Fi
• Safety deposit box
• Meeting facilities

so, i've successfully bought the deals as it is too tempting.. it has jacuzzi people..hahaha..so this is my dream that will become reality so far.. insyaAllah.. after this, i'm dreaming of having pedicure & manicure, as well as pampered myself at spa for massages & facial treatment.. i've also dream to go to celebrity fitness or join/have membership for any health/fitness gym..oh forgot.. want to buy new laptop for study.. i've been using this mini HP for a long time.. want a bigger screen..hehe.. & maybe DSLR will be in the list as i love taking pictures..and as i'll be travelling a lot after this, it is a must have item.. kak izu & i  had a chat about travelling.. and maybe we'll be going for backpacking travelling to explore Indonesia started from Surabaya..& my rumate did asked me to join her to go to Istanbul, Turki early next year.. i'm really tempting to go there since i watch 'Istanbul Aku Datang'..bahaha.. maybe this  one can be in the list also.. that's i'll hunt next..& the other place that i'll traveled soon is Vietnam with my aunt, mama & along.. we planned to go there after Raya, on 14th-16th August 2013. have to save some money then..hehe.. and the list will go on & on..hehe.. there's so much things about my dream that i want to share.. will update later..  till then, take care people.. have a nice weekend.. :)

p/s:

~This is what I want from a man~

Hi & Assalamualaikum.. 

 In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question: “What kind of man are you looking for?” She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, ‘Do you really want to know?’ Reluctantly, he said,”Yes.” She began to expound… “As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what can you do for me that I can’t do for myself? I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man…or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’” 

 The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought & stated, “I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.” He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain. She said, “I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man. I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked…believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships.

 Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man. I need a man who is family-oriented. One who can be the leader and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God. I need someone whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive…he just has to be worthy. And by the way, I am not looking for him…He will find me. He will recognize himself in me. Hey may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me. God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself.” When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said,”You are asking a lot.” She replied, “I’m worth a lot”.

~ Alone~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Melalui hari-hari yang sunyi lately.. tapi tak mengapa.. InsyaAllah akan terbiasa nanti.. Dan hari-hari yang saya lalui sekarang lebih bermakna kerana Allah SWT sentiasa di hati.. Semoga akan terus istiqamah begini..  saya rasa lebih tenang dgn kehidupan yg dipilih sekarang.. no stress.. no hurt.. and yeah, i feel like i've become more heartless now.. If this is the best way utk saya mendapatkan redha Allah SWT, melupakan segala kepahitan hidup & kenangan lampau, i guess it's ok.. Kun Fayakun.. I trust Allah SWT..Because He never let me down while people did.. He always answer my prayers.. & i know i won't feel lonely even i'f nobody around me..  

Narrated Abu Huraira: Allah’s Apostle salallahu alaihi wasallam said, “Our Lord, the Blessed, the Superior, comes every night down on the nearest Heaven to us when the last third of the night remains, saying: “Is there anyone to invoke Me, so that I may respond to invocation? Is there anyone to ask Me, so that I may grant him his request? Is there anyone seeking My forgiveness, so that I may forgive him?”
Sahih Al-Bukhari – Book 21 Hadith 246



And seek forgiveness of Allah. Indeed, Allah is ever Forgiving and Merciful.
Surat An-Nisa 4:106



And whoever does a wrong or wrongs himself but then seeks forgiveness of Allah will find Allah Forgiving and Merciful.
Surat An-Nisa 4:110

People, please be reminded that nothing lasts forever in this world.. Even people will die.. Even everything we had will be broken/diminished over time.. The one & only thing that will stay is Allah SWT.. Life doesn't always give you the things you want, you want because you see others have it.. Sometimes if you don't get certain things, don't need to pull a face...you just need improvise and make the best of what you have. Some of us may not get love, some matrimony, some may not get children, some don't have families and other plenty of things that we are told are important to derive happiness. It's not the amount of things that makes you happy, but a strong attitude to live gracefully in the absence of it.. At end, everyone is going to go empty hands. Suit up and live life like it's your favorite game.. :)

~ Renovation of Life~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

I'm quite busy lately.. busy with business, study & personal life.. if you did notice, i seldom on9 & posting in FB like i used to be..

To be honest, i'm in the phase of renovating my life.. to better of course.. major changes will be happened soon in my life.. i'm not ready to story now.. Just let time pass by & you'll see what are the changes in my life..

i'm excited.. nervous and not sure at the same time..hehe.. pray for me.. may i find my own happiness.. :')

oh yes.. the first major changes in my life is my blog...  if you are my follower, you'll see the major changes here..teheeee.. it's the perfect time for everything new.. wish me luck guys.. (^_^)

~ Dekat..tapi jauh.. ~

~Kisah cinta~

 Hi & Assalamualaikum..

terbaca satu kisah ni.. 

Ada seorang gadis ini yang mempunyai 1 hati tapi telah mencintai 2 lelaki dan lelaki itu juga mencintai gadis ini ... tiba suatu hari si gadis ini perlu memilih 1 saja lelaki di dalam hidupnya kerna setiap insan hanya diberi 1 hati untuk mencintai seorang insan yang bergelar lelaki, maka si gadis ini memilih A dan si B pun menerima dengan hati yang terbuka .. ada suatu malam si gadis ini sedang berborak dengan lelaki ini melalui chating di fb ... si gadis bertanya "awak x sakit hati ke saye memilih si A" lalu si B pun bercakap "saya redha kerna saya tahu dari awal lagi awk hanya mencintai dia...." si gadis terus mengalirkan air mata .... lalu si gadis pun bercakap " saya masih suka dekat awak lagi" si B pun bercakap " xpayah la couple je nan si A kecian dia kerna dia sayang kat awak sangat-2 " waktu itu si gadis memang nak tinggalkan si A kerna si A telah mengabaikan dia dan xpernah contact pun .. akhirnya si gadis ambil keputusan untuk bersabar dan setia kepada si A ... si gadis dan si B ni berchatting sambil mendengar lagu KISS THE RAIN ..... sampai sekarang si gadis akan selalu mendengar lagu itu ... 

Jadi pada lelaki yang macam si A tu ... ingat jangan abaikan perempuan yang mencintai kita hingga sanggup mengorbankan cintanya pada lelaki lain ..