~Storm~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Life is about ups & downs.. and how you go through it all.. how you see & your perception towards the coming obstacles.. & most importantly, how you handle all the problems.. is very very important.. :)

true indeed.. :)

~Hair~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Hair is very precious to woman.. orang kata rambut tu lambang mahkota wanita.. & mostly lelaki prefer wanita yg berambut panjang lg mengurai.. seperti gadis-gadis rejoice & pantene.. btui dak??haha.. honestly, i don't have a beautiful hair.. i bet people will expect that i've a very beautiful long hair..or maybe a straight silky hair.. tettttt..tekaan korang salah...

i confess that i have a hair problem..it's started in 2006, when i'm in matriculation i lost lot of my hair.. i don't know why but i guess maybe because  i ate too much maggi + drink a lot of cafein + stress in study.. masa tu kalo sikat  rambut je, mesti bergumpal-gumpal..seriously i'm so scared & i thought i'll gonna die soon bcoz i might get serious disease such as cancer.. haha 

Tapi Alhamdulillah, masih hidup sehingga kini, 2013..hehe..so i thought maybe it's genetic from my father (my father is bald since he got married to my mom) or maybe because i kept changing shampoo brand during secondary school.. effectnye gugur la rambut.. yela, budak-budak kan selalu terpengaruh dgn iklan tv..kihkih.. so after 7 years, just imagine how many hair left on my head.. it's like everyday i loss my hair.. dulu masa kecik-kecik, my hair sangat sangat tebal.. hitam..straight.. but then bila masuk secondary school, my hair become wavy.. maybe sbb effect pakai tudung..peram rambut basah2..haha.. orang cakap my hair  ikal mayang..dulu  masa kecik-kecik, my mom always cut my hair to very short one.. like a boy.. bila balik pekan, pahang, wajib pegi kedai auntie cina tu potong rambut.. so, mmg dulu i'm a bit tomboy + ganas..haha.. pastu da masuk secondary school, baru start simpan panjang-panjang.. dulu boleh simpan panjang-panjang..paling panjang almost sampai pinggang.. lepas 2006, since i loss a lot of hair, i started to cut my hair, paling panjang yg boleh pun sampai bahu je.. bila da panjang dari bahu, mula la gugur..tak tahan tgk rambut gugur, maka haruslah potong pendek..

Bila rambut nipis, jarang & nampak kulit kepala, seriously rasa down + malu+jealous kat girls yg rambut lebat & cantek.. it's like rasa rendah diri & ashamed la..kat khalayak ramai mcm kat surau pun kadang-kadang segan nk bukak tudung..coz people will look & stare.. like u are an alien.. (@_@).. tapi hari tu my mom cakap nampak rambut makin lebat..apa rahsia??hehehe.. i think it's because i consume Felinna vit C tu kot.. it's a collagen..since i consume that product, i realize that, bila sikat rambut, rambut x byk gugur.. muka glowing..kulit lembap..plus collagen & vit c good utk org yg ada resdung.. maybe sbb resdung jugak i loss my hair.. so maybe that's the reason..tapi hari tu saya beli sekotak je before engagement.. sbb duit xde..scholarship x masuk lagi..so bila berhenti, i started to loss my hair back..oh rambut.. T_T

sekarang rambut da melepasi bahu..disebabkan curl & wavy, xla nampak panjang sgt..tapi bila diluruskan, sbnrnya da sampai dada..agak panjang...tapi hari2 bila banyak gila gugur especially lepas mandi & rambut basah, agak stress jugak.. i hate this.. so, i've decided that i want to cut my hair this weekend, when going back to hometown..tadi duduk depan cermin, tilik diri sendiri..which hair cut should i choose.. bila pandang rambut yg panjang & wavy macam org buat kat saloon (pernah amoi nak potong rambut tu tanya, lu x sayang ka potong rambut, coz she thought that i curled my hair at saloon..bahahaha.. so do my uncle.. during hari raya in 2010 i guess, he said, wahhh..rambut buat saloon ke??kehkeh..well, it's natural), rasa macam sayang nak potong..tapi kalau tak potong, kerap pulak gugur.. nanti kang botak terus..hahaha..so, i googled few image that can be as an inspiration.. this time, i really want a short hair cut..coz i planned to do some treatment after this.. & mungkin sng pakai minyak, toner, ubat, blablabla after this.. & mungkin kadar penyerapan & keberkesanan produk tersebut adalah tinggi bila rambut sudah dipotong pendek..senang diurus nanti.. check this out:

 too sweet.. ;)

 love this style also.. :)

 fall in love..

 hey, i might consider this justin bieber looks..bahahaha

 love this too..

 and this...

 cute..

this is cool.. ;)

 arggghhhhh.. pening nak pilih design kepala..hahaha XD

since isu hair ni agak besar for myself, i did explained everything to future husband.. for me, sebarang kekurangan pada diri haruslah diberitahu awal-awal agar bila dah kawen nanti xdelah husband terkejut beruk ke apa kan..mana tau kalo kena cerai tibe-tibe malam pertama sebab husband rasa tertipu.. bahahaha.. so better berterus terang..it's the easiest way.. in my situation, i love to ask him ridiculous questions.. .saja je nak tgk respon orang laki ni mcm mana..hahaha

me: Awak.. saya nak tanya ni....

him: ape???

me: Kalau saya botak kan, awak nak saya lagi tak?? (soalan kena la extreme sket..haha)

him: haaa?? kenapa?? awak botak ke??

me: kalo ye??

him: tak pe la awak.. saya terima je awak seadanya.. paras rupa bukan kekal pun..  nanti da tua pon buruk jugak.. botak jugak.. saya pon byk gak gugur rambut ni.. . lagipun skrg kan macam macam ada..yun nam haircare la.. miracle hair la.. nanti dah keje or ada duit, kita gi la sama-sama ek?

me: T_T (menanges terharu ada pasangan yg mengharukan..hahaha)

pastu nak test lagi...

me: awak... saya kannn.. ada parut penuh satu badan... (ok, ini mmg tipu..haha)

him: yeke?? 

me: haah..nape??dah xnak saya dah??

him: x kisah la awk.. nak jugak kawen dgn awak.. x kira la ketiak awk hitam ke.. mulut bau longkang ke.. hidung senget sebelah ke..(ok, yg ni saja reka cite..kahkah)

so, telling the truth about yourself, & he doesn't mind about it and accept you just the way you are, that's telling & show how he loves you truly.. despite segala kekurangan yg kamu ada..that small little things doesn't matter..it's not your physical or how did u look, what matter the most is the 'heart'.. that's true love.. :')

p/s: my younger sister also faced the same problem.. i wish that i get my scholarship as soon as possible.. i wanna bring her to get a treatment from specialist too.. coz i knew how she feel & i wanna help her..pray for us so that our hair will grow more & healthy... amin.. :)

~ Wedding Theme~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Lots of things happened these few days.. & i hope i may go through the obstacles well.. InsyaAllah.. so jom happy happy kan diri dengan wedding thingy bila tgh a little bit down..muehehe

Perkara yang agak penting bila u olls da set tarikh nak kawen adalah wedding theme.. boleh pilih 3 tema warna (akak nikah, sanding, sambut menantu).. bila dah ada wedding theme boleh la pilih semua benda ikut warna tema (kad kawen, design bunting, pelamin, baju pengantin, every deco for photobooth & candy buffet & etc).. i'm a bit confuse when it comes to choose the suitable, beautiful colours of my own wedding.. i bet the other bride to be feel the same way as i did.. i did a lot of survey.. & i love and prefer the combination of two colours.. during engagement dulu, warna tema adalah pink+biru turqoise.. & i'm in love with that.. masa tunang da buat warna tu, so masa wedding ni kena warna lain la, walau pada hakikatnya i'm still in love with turqoise..hehe.. i want my wedding to be simple & affordable, yet it shows the element of elegant & exclusive.. plus few creative arts in it.. kalo bley semua nak DIY..heee.. so that will be the main theme.. dah ada beberapa pilihan warna to be chosen..

Untuk akad nikah, normally B2B akan pilih warna-warna yg lembut.. generally warna white, off-white, soft pink, cream, champagne, peach, baby blue.. nak selamat warna putih jela..so bila dalam gambar, time akad nikah nampak suci gitu..hihi.. nak pilih tema warna akad nikah pun dah pening & susah tahu?bahahaha.. but i have few colours in my minds.. check this out.. 

 Gold & pink.. nice one.. ;)

 i'm so in love with this colour.. so soft & sweet.. mint & peach..

 peach + white pun cantek.. :)

 something rare.. yellow + grey.. look so exclusive.. ;)

i love this colour too.. i saw this colour as a theme of my senior wedding.. it looks so beautiful.. mint.. ;)

so?? what's ur colours?? i haven't decided yet which colour will be for the solemnization ceremony.. but i know it will be awesome once i have decided.. ;)

next, colour for reception.. i love purple so much & i've decided that my wedding theme will be have purple colour.. there's only 2 purple in my mind.. check this out:

i love soft purple.. dusty purple actually.. purple-greyish.. look so elegant & stylish.. ;)

 & i love purple+ turqoise too.. so into it.. & this combination of colours are just awesome.. :)

& again..this colour..bahahaha.. aiyooo.. pening sudah..

teringat hari tu, chatting with my fiancee on fb.. 

me: Awak.. tema wedding kita kaler apa ek???

him: ntah.. awak suka warna ape??

me: saya suka dusty purple.. (sambil upload gambar dusty purple)..tapi saya suka jugak kaler ni (purple turqoise)

him: hmmmm.. ikut awaklah.. wedding kat umah awak, tema ikut awak la.. tapi kat rumah saya, saya nak wat purple-turqoise.. (cakap dgn berlagaknya)

me: mana boleh.. saya kan pilih dulu.. 

him: ahhhh..x kira.. kat umah saya, saya nak buat warna purple-turqoise jugak.. 

me: (@_@)

tak pasal-pasal berebut colour.. & he was so in love with purple turqoise too..hahaha..

so, no final decision yet.. just wait & see..hehe..

bubye love.. ;)

~ Wedding Book~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Sebenarnya tadi da menulis banyak pasal wedding plan, sekali apa yg ditulis x tersave dekat blog.. hang bukak page lain..tapi semua hilang.. fine.. wasting time je tulis panjang2 tadi..sobs.. i hate u blog.. 

Terus hilang mood nak menulis.. pape pun, here's one tips for bride to be (B2B).. have your own 'Wedding Book'.. in this book, you might write anything about your relationship, your engagement preparation & wedding preparation.. you may list all vendors & their contact number as well.. you may list all important dates & events.. & your dream wedding too.. so here's my own "Wedding Book".. teheee..

kewujudan buku ni dah lama.. 26/7/2011..heee.. ada jugak manfaat buat buku ni.. :)

wedding plan cite lain kali..mungkin pasni kena tulis kat microsoft word dulu baru copy paste dalam blog.. :P

daaa.. ;)

~ Change.... Again (@_@)~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Since yesterday, 21/2/2013, a lot of things will change in my life.. it will affect my life later in the future.. but firstly, what happened yesterday?

Yesterday, i visited the sampling site, an area include landfill, leachate treatment plant & incinerator plant (could not mentioned here coz it was listed as secured scheduled waste landfill).. I went there along with my SV, Assoc.Prof . Dr. Hasfalina Che Man, my co-SV (my SV's husband), Prof. M. Rashid from MJIIT UTM-KL.. as well as his students, 2 girls (Kak Ruwaida & Syahirah) & a boy (Sani).. at 9AM, we went there by new car toyota Innova, official car of MJIIT.. have a breakfast at R&R Seremban, & proceed to the place.. 

Kak Ruwaida, a 29 years old (she looks like early 20's..even i can't believe she already married..bahahaha), already married to a Petronas Engineer & have a cute daughter..she is a tutor in MJIIT, & currently proceed her study at PhD level..& we have similarities.. doing PhD with the  background of master coursework.. she did her master just within a year.. Meanwhile, Syahira is  a year younger than me, & she's doing her master now.. just graduated last year.. Both Kak Ruwaida & Syahira research are related, their research about PM2.5 and PM10.. Kak Ruwaida & Syahira are in their 1st semester.. Sani is the only boy under supervision of Prof. Rashid..he's 25 years old & he's getting married in August...guess what?? he's a friend to my friend who studied in Japan during undergraduate.. so kecik dunia ni.. & his project is related to mine.. about ammonia.. the differences is, he will do within the lab scale while i'm doing my research at the  landfill site.. & the similarities between 4 of us is that, we're very talkative & love gossiping...bahahahaha.. it's fun when we don't really know each other, but we can laugh & chatting non-stop.. i can get along with 3 of them so well.. Alhamdulillah.. Allah SWT always send good & nice people, but more importantly, the one that i can get along with throughout my journey.. happy to know them..

okay, back to the topic, we actually went there to present our research project to the staff & management, so that they will understand about what we're actually going to do there.. basically, we just give brief ideas to them.. & we hope they will assist & gives opinion towards our research.. Sani is the first person to present.. me the second one.. Sani managed to present all the slides, & the staff did give a lot of comment.. but when they're discussing, Prof. Rashid asked me to present first & they will look & think..as Sani's projects is kinda related to mine.. but when i talked about methodology part, everything stops there.. they said, they didn't have any pond.. just tank.. Prof. Rashid asked for their ideas, if they had encountered any problem & we might try to solve it.. they did have problem for ammonia.. they are currently studying the most effective way of reducing ammonia in liquid leachate as they received various sources of waste from industries.. they have a problem with chemical treatment as well as biological treatment.. most of the microbes they cultured can't survived under that extreme condition (too hazardous!)..plus all the chemical were applied to the treatment manually (human workforce which might affect their health as they use lime).. so after a brief discussion, Prof Rashid that Sani & me got to change our project.. from assessment & monitoring of ammonia to leachate treatment & ammonia removal.. & maybe air stripping.. which i will spend my this 2 & 1/2 years in the lab.. Alhamdulillah!! no worry to go to the sampling site alone.. maklum la at Seremban.. don't have to think about safety matter..maybe after this we just went there to take the sample, & brought back to the lab..so after this, i need to play around and 'asah' my lab skill which i left a long long time ago..phewwww.. eventhough i've to do the proposal back, i think there's a lot of Hikmah actually in the future for me.. maybe i can finished my lab work early & graduated for my PhD early.. maybe i can get married soon in the next few months.. at least after a started my project & have a 'little' result.. i'm not worried at all eventhough i've to change my research project again.. well, this is the 3rd time i changed my proposal...wahahaha...so, i'm getting used to it..just imagine i've done until chapter 1,2,& 3 pon.. da divide according macam thesis.. :P sekarang tgh sort previous journal & delete mana yg tak berkaitan dah.. need to work hard these 2 weeks.. need to see my SV and ask her opinion.. Friends, please pray for me ya..may everything will be easier for me after this..hopefully this will be the last time i changed my proposal.. insyaAllah.. ;)

so, after the presentation, we went to JJ Seremban, having lunch at Kenny Roger's.. Prof. Rashid belanja.. sgt happy.. dapat makan sedap.. dapat meet new friends yg awesome.. & dapat tau a lot of info about my SV which i didn't expect at all..wahahaha.. gosip je memanjang.. :P  then, we pray & balik UPM.. 

on the way walking to the lab, i call mr. fiancee.. to talk about everything i've been going through & all the gossips i knew..muehehe..well, dia lah pendengar paling setia.. bila saya marah ke..emo ke..sedih ke..happy ke.. pasal my life ke.. i always kept 'mumbling' to him even though dia layan or tak..kehkeh

me: hello,awak buat apa?

him: hmmm.. baring baring.. nak tido..

me: tido je keje.. keje awak ni makan & tido je ek?? ptg pulak asyik main futsal..paper dah siap ke?  project mcm mana? (terus je kena fire..hahaha)

him: da laptop saya ada dengan awak.. macam mana saya nak wat keje??

me: oh..lupe..muehehe (i borrowed his laptop for the presentation)..awak

him:ye..

me: pasni saya dah tak perlu pegi site da..

him:ha??kenapa??

me: tadi lepas discuss, saya tak leh wat project tu.. saya kena tukar projek.. daripada assessment & monitoring to treatment.. nanti kita jumpa la saya cite detail.. so, lepas ni saya banyak duk kat lab jela..yeay!! macam boleh kawen awal je..hihi

him: yeay!! boley baby awal la??

me: ........... (@_@) terus diam tak terkata..hahahaha

~Uji~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

P/s: Sedang diuji.. moga tabah menghadapi hari-hari mendatang.. 

A lot of things to do & settle.. Dear Allah SWT, please ease my way.. help me to go through every obstacles.. Semoga urusan Hari Khamis nanti berjalan dgn lancar.. Amin..

~Rindu~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Tak tahu kenapa terasa rindu pada seseorang yg pernah hadir dlm hidup ini..

terasa sedih tiba-tiba.. T_T

tengah mengemas barang, pastu dgr lagu ni..laju je air mata ni turun..

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
No no
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

and this...

Menanti bicaramu menyambut kataku...
Bagaikan puisi mimpi mengindahi lenaku..
Hadir cahayamu menari dimataku..
Lembut jiwa menyambutku..
Mimpi kita bersatu..
  Dan ku mengharap
Sinar hatiku bertemu

Kutiba lagi..
bersama rasa rindu datang bertamu..
Diruang hati kecil yg berbicara..
Ingatilah diriku ini bersama
Kenangan itu...

Walaupun ku lihat bintang-bintang di balik awan..
Gugurnya kebumi menjadi impian
Takkan ku lepas apa yg ku harapkan
Kerna ku untuk mu

Apa mungkinku melakari memorimu..
Di wajah langit membiru..
Awan putih tintaku..

Bersama kita mengejar rasa sempurna
Walau hakikat ku tahu..
Mimpi tiada bersatu..

Takkan lena walau seketika
Bisikan mimpi pasti berbicara
Tak pernah jemu menanti dirimu
Hingga kau menjelma

Oh Tuhan.. jauhkanlah perasaan ini dari diriku..

I need to move on....