~Happy New Year 2013~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

This is the last entry for 2012 i guess.. it's already 31/12/12... wahhhh!! time flies so fast.. a year had passed.. can't wait & looking forward for the Good & Bad memories in 2013.. hehe.. so, bila da nak masuk tahun baru, semua orang sibuk tulis azam baru & impian masing-masing.. nak flashback la apa yg saya da azamkan tahun 2012 dulu.. nak tgk what i got at the end of the year of 2012.. whether it is accomplished.. or not.. ;)

Azam Tahun 2012:

1. Nak Kurus.. 

[accomplished..sbb current weight 56.5kg from 63kg..tapi kena reducekan lagi..so forward to 2013..hehe]

 

2.want to be a better muslimah 

[still trying..& always try to improve.. ;)]

 

3. want to finish my study in January 2012 with flying colours 

[accomplished.. graduated from my master degree with CGPA 3.75 & above as targeted]

 

 4. i want to get a permanent job with higher salary.. maybe RM2000++ 

[i'm not working yet..so i didn't accomplished this one.. but i'm currently going to finished my first semester of PhD.. a thing that i've never expected..& insyaAllah, this is for a better career in the future.. Alhamdulillah.. :)]

5. i wish to have my own car

[not accomplished yet.. InsyaAllah early January-February 2013..still waiting for MyPhD Scholarships]

6. saya nak beli ape yg saya idamkan

[not accomplished yet..maybe after MyPhD Sholarships masuk..hehe]

7.  i want to live a happy new life & forget the past.. 

[still trying & adapt.. found many new & nice people.. & i'm happy with my life now..]

8.  i wish that something big will happen soon in my life.. 

[accomplished.. many big things happened in my life during 2012.. i had graduated from my master degree, which the convocation ceremony in October 2012.. i got further my study to PhD level..  many of my BFF got engaged & married.. & hey, i'm engaged to someone also now! haha.. never expected this one.. yet Allah SWT plan is the best.. :) ]

Lastly, Happy New Year 2013 to all..may this upcoming year will be better & joyful to us.. InsyaAllah.. (^_^)

p/s:azam tahun baru nak fikir dulu malam ni..esok baru tulis..kihkih.. :P

~30/12/12~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Today 30/12/12 is the date that we're supposedly to get engaged..& supposedly to be done in Terengganu.. however, it became earlier than we thought.. 15/12/12 which is such a nice date in tahun hijrah 1/2/3/4.. is that amazing? Definitely Allah SWT plan is the best.. Alhamdulillah.. (^_^)

there was one sunday morning when i'm still on the bed, surfing on the internet, my mom called...it started with an actual conversation.. you know how when your mama called tanya itu ini.. kat mana...buat ape...da makan ke blum...hehe..then, suddenly she asked...

mama: Dah angah bila nak bertunang dengan Ben??

me: Haaaaa??? kenapa ?? mama nak orang tunang ke??hahaha (Quite shock coz suddenly she asked this kind of question.. tak pernah pulak terkeluar kat mulut ni pasal nak tunang ke apa..haha.. pastu boleh pulak tanya soalan bodoh kat mama kan..main main lagi..coz i thought she wasn't that serious saja nak wat joke pagi pagi..hehe :P) 

 mama: yela...da tu?? bila nak tunang??? 

me: da mama nak orang tunang bile??hahahaha.. (gelak lagi sebab mcm x percaya je..ni mama abah mimpi ke ape tetiba suh saya bertunang pulak kan?heee)

mama: bila abg?? time gaji kita da masuk la kan?? 30/12??ke 31/12? (she was talking to my father.. i'm just pasang telinga..hehe) abah cakap ujung2 bulan la..time gaji da masuk senang sket..bgtau la ummi ben tu.. 

me:haha..okay... nanti orang cakap kat dia... 

me then terus je letak phone & x sabar2 nak bagitau Mr. Ben.. nak tengok reaction dia sebenarnya..hahaha

me: helo??

him: helo..

me:awak.. ma suruh kita tunang...hahahaha (xtau knape rasa mcm kelakar.. :P)

him: haaaa????? siyessss dop???

me: serious la..hehe.. mama ckp suh wat ujung bulan..masa tu ma abh dapat gaji...so gane??

him: ...... (diam..) nanti la saya tanya umi gane..

me:okay...

the end........

a few days after that i've got a call from my ateh (auntie yg paling rapat & saya byk membesar with her..she always be by my side.. macam mama no.2..hehe)masa tu da terlintas dalam hati mesti mama da bgtau semua org kat Pekan ni..hehe..as usual gosip cepat tersebar luas..

Her:helo... (suara budak kecik..it was actually kakak, her daughter...my bridesmaid yg chubby dlm gmbar engagement tu..hihi..)

me: helo??

 Her: oooooo...ada orang tu nak bertunang tak bagitau kita ekkk..

me:hahahaha.. kakak tau mana???

 

Her: Mok De la cakap.. hehe..oooo..x bgtau nak tunang ngan ben ek..

me: hehe..cuba panggil ibu jap...

ateh: haaa..helo.. nak tunang x ckp..hahaha

me: hahaha..bukan orang..ma la yg beria..hehe

ateh: awak buat sekali jela ngan kenduri ateh...wat kat pekan ni...tgh bulan 12...senang sekali harung je...

me: haaa??wat kat pekan tu??

ateh:haa la.. tu..maksu cakap nak sponsor mekap, pelamin, baju.. (maksu is the youngest sister of my mom..she just started new bridal business in Kerteh)

me: hehe..nantilah orang tanya mama...

ateh: ok..

the end.....

terus je call mama... da confuse masa tu..haha

me: helo mama.. 

mama:hahahaha.. ermmmm...nampak gayanya kena wat majlis kat Pekan jugok la.. toki, ateh, mak su pujuk suh wat situ blake...

me: da tu kena gtau pihak ben la ni?

mama: haah..cuba bgtau & bincang elok2...

me: yela..nanti orang try tanya dia...

so after pening-pening decide & discuss, set la tarikh 15/12/12...majlis kat Pekan, Pahang... berdrama jugak la masa dlm proses perbincangan tu..ingatkan sampai x jadi..hehe.. & at last, it did happened as we had planned..& it was very perfect.. :)

we've never thought it might happened this fast.. we've never thought that the ceremony will be so beautiful.. & we just let it happened.. Alhamdulillah.. less than a month preparation..hehe..but seriously, quite a mess.. i went back to my toki's home in Pekan, Pahang 2 days before the ceremony.. the next day, i was spending my time from early subuh to late evening making 200 cupcakes & cake in jar for hantaran.. & i felt i was going to loss my feet..haha ..giler lenguh seharian berdiri wat cupcake tu..makan pon x sempat..sigh! ptgnya terus packing2 goodies.. for sure, i'm not going to do this anymore when it comes to my wedding day.. if i did, i'll turn to a freaky BRIDEZILLA!! hahaha.. :P

 

happily smile.. :)

 that my ateh with grey cloth.. :)

tetiba abah panggil Ben..beria dia nak sarungkan cincin kat bakal menantu..haha.. :P

ni me masa ummi tgh sarung cincin.. :) 

supposedly letak gambar ni dulu..haha

dan saya ada 2 orang bridesmaid on my engagement day..haha.. 

mak-mak budak ni yg terlebey excited pegi menempah baju semua..hihi

Aksi di luar kawalan..haha.. :P

dua-dua mata sepet..haha..muka along tgh blurr.. :P

His big family.. :)

 i love the flowers as well as the ring.. ;)

siblings..love them mucho.. :)

 No matter what, i'll always look bigger than him..

eventhough he's actually 3kg heavier than me.. lol!

 us with mama.. :)

sorang kanak-kanak x matured...sorang wanita matured...

moral of the story: for me to look thinner or at least the same size as he is, i need to reduce another 5kg.. nak gambar cantek masa kawen terpaksa laa..haha

okbai..

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Hi & Assalamualaikum...

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~I'm sorry but i love you.. i'm sorry if i miss you..~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

lagu lama...

tapi saya suka..

i'm sorry but i love you.. i'm sorry if i miss you.. even if i can't have you.. you know i'll always be there for you.. :')

~Missing + Pray~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

There is at one time/moment in our life, we'll meet someone special.. but then we realized, we can't have them..

True indeed..

missing the old time.. but that moment we can't reverse back.. it just left as a memory..

a sweet memory to be remembered.. :)

and all we can do when missing someone is PRAY... :')

~Don't Make Her Confused~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

A woman.. when she fall to someone.. she's really fall.. & she's willing to do everything for whom she love.. yes.. everyhthing... in fact, the love will remain there for a long time.. Eventhough she said she's going to be ok.. she's happy with her new life.. deep down her heart, there's a little bit hope that he felt the same way like she did..just don't play with her heart if you didn't feel the same way like she did.. & stay away from her if you are not intended to love her..or to have her.. or have feelings for her..just don't make her confuse.. will ya? :)

~ Set Fire To The Rain~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Adele is may favourite female singer...seriously, i wanna be like her.. *hahaha..verangan..suara beliau sgt tinggi sehingga tak tercapai dek tekakku..kehkeh*

everytime kalau pergi karaoke, bersama teman-teman, sepupu or Mr.Ben, lagu ni wajib saya nyanyi.. well, practised makes perfect.. dok gitu? heeee.. :P

every songs that became my favourites actually got something related to me..or my life.. or the lyrics captured my heart.. saya sangat suka lagu ini bersama dengan maksudnya sekali.. take a look at the lyrics.. 

"Set Fire To The Rain"

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak,
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you'd play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
When it fell, something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

[Chorus:]
I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
When it fell, something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, ohhhh!

Oh noooo
Let it burn, oh
Let it burn
Let it burn

 lagu ni ade maksud tersendiri.. yg hanya saya sorang je yang mengerti.. totally suits my situation perfectly.. (^_^)

p/s: semalam gaji Mr. Ben da masuk.. so today dia belanja pergi karok kat Alamanda.. RM18/hour.. so berkesempatan la nyanyi lagu ney..hehe.. dia ckp, sejak saya asyik minum plain water, suara saya makin mantap..Ok..next year boley pegi ujibakat VOKAL BUKAN SEKADAR RUPA... hahahaha :P

~Perkara yang selalu buat saya susah hati~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Actually this 1-2 weeks, saya selalu susah hati.. & it is because of MONEY.. being a student of course you have no money.. borang MyPhD dah anta since 26/11/2012.. today dah 24/12/12.. lambat sgt ke nak proses cik kak & cik abg oii?? *pissed off*

seriously, i brokedown & breaking apart because have no money...tired of waiting the scholarships.. nak wat itu xley..wat ini xley..nak buat pape pon xde mood.. sincerely, since last week, lepas da email artikel kt Dr., keje saya hanyalah on9 promote business & main FB.. then baca blog..even yg sebenarnya nak update proposal + slide.. target this week (which is tomorrow) nak email Dr. & set tarikh for proposal presentation before 8/1/13 since she will be away for Zurich, London, & Paris.. tapi tadi lega da setel satu prob..last week engineering management call..cakap i have to add another supervisor.. SERIOUSLY??? i hate berurusan dgn management people.. especially UPM..byk sgt cekadaknya hoi! procedure mcm2.. ntah pape..cakap kena add sorg lg SV dari faculty engineering..dorg nak guarantee la kononnya.. since my other 2 co-SV  sorang external..sorang dari faculty of environmental studies.. pastu kena cop lg borang bagai.. tau la kan i xde kenderaan.. nak pegi berurusan semua tu dgn sape??terpaksa berharap kat encik tunang jugak.. *nanges*..i asked my SV who would she suggest to me? she said.. Prof. Dr. Luqman Chuah Abdullah.. so today, officially i have 4 Supervisor for my PhD.. & luckily Prof. Chuah sgt baek...pagi tadi sampai awal..tggu dalam bergelap kat koridor..ketuk2 bilik dia xde.. sis management ckp die slalu masuk tgh hari..ok..tapi dlm hati nak tggu die..so duduk la kat luar tmpat menunggu..pastu x sampai 5 min duduk, terkocoh-kocoh sorg laki masuk.. i recognized him.. pastu he called.. i said.. "i think i just saw u now.. i'll come to your room".. hehe.. pastu masa lalu depan sis management tu, saya gelak je.. kelakar pon ade..haha.... he's a very friendly man.. tanya semua background study..project.. even my future career.. he's a motivated person.. dia cakap 3 years should be enough.. 'you don't have to do PhD lama lama coz the real research started when you finished your PhD'.. & he give me a lot of advice.. he even tell me that  when he did PhD before, he didn't even published any journals.. after 2 years of his PhD barulah he published.. now he's a Professor at Department of Chemical & Environmental Engineering.. He even praised me... " you seem to got 'Good English' ha? where are u came from?'.. he asked me twice kot tanya where i came from.. hehe.. when i said Terengganu, he even can't believe it..hahaha.. so funny.. i told him.. english is my fav subject in school.. & i do participate in public speaking & whatsoeva.. he said that's good for me.. see how impress i am & how lucky i am to have him as my another CO-SV?? *nanges terharu*...another thing is that.. maybe i look confident when speaking..eventhough masa bercakap dengan dia sbnrnya English grammar berterabur & certain term he mentioned i didn't understand tapi still angguk2 kepala jugak...hahahaha.. & of coz since i'm doing PhD, i learn how to manage myself, being confident, berani, xde takut2 & segan mcm dulu & most importantly being professional since i've to deal with people from various background..& i think i became more matured now.. :')

so back to the topic, of course parent ada bagi..tapi u know living cost duk KL & Selangor mcm mana kan?saya pula jenis bukan yg meminta-minta..& x reti nak bercerita..even xde duit sgt2 pon i rather keep it to myself.. rela susah sendiri dari susahkan mereka.. they had sacrificed a lot for me.. *nanges*.. sewa umah sahaja RM200++ x termasuk bil air + bil api yg pakai top up..seriously sapa yg nak stay kat THE ACADEMIA, x payah la i suggest to u..sbb safety..sbb money yg obviously byk hidden charge.. arggggghhh!!! tension.. & i got an email said that i x bayar lagi fee for NOV & DEC.. hello.. NOV aritu da setel kot.. baru 1st time ni lambat bayar pon lu org nak kecoh ke? *pissed off*

and tadi sebab susah hati sgt msj my sis, Along.. asked her if she had 50-100.. nak pinjam bayar umah sewa apartment yg mahai tu before Mr. Ben dapat duit gaji yg ntah bila nak masuk tu.. but she tell my mom & abah.. siyes rasa nk marah..sbb saya xnak parent susah hati.. lgpon abah baru bank in last week RM350..duit nk byr umah cukup2 je ade.. nak mkn yg x ckp.. paham-paham la bila encik tunang x dpt gaji lg saya sbg tunang yg mithali juga membantu dia..kata nak susah senang sama2 kan?? *nanges*.. Along ckp efi (my adik) da naik motor pegi shell kat umah tu bank in RM250..RM150 mama bagi.. RM 100 abah bagi..part ni yg wat rasa sedih & sebak sangat.. terus call abah.. telefon x berangkat lagi pon da berjurai-jurai air mata..

abah: nape nangesnye? abah kan ade..angah kalo xde duit cakap la.. selagi abah hidup abah mampu sara anak abah.. *nanges*

mama: jangan sedey2..mama byk harta kan?kalo x dop duit sgt kita gadai emas ma berlambak tu.. mama sedih nape angah x bgtau mama..nape mintak ngan along.. along kan x keje.. *banjir*

seriously dari tadi berjurai-jurai air mata.. xtau nak ungkapkan mcm mana..hanya yg mengalami je tau... dalam hati ni Allah SWT je yang tahu.. rasa sedih & sebak sgt.. terlalu besar pengorbanan mama abah untuk saya.. xkan terbalas sampai bila bila..saya tau parent saya tidak byk harta.. seperti org lain yg mewarisi harta turun temurun..atau bekerja makan gaji..mereka juga byk lagi tanggungan lain.. sbb itu saya sedih.. cuma satu je harapan saya..semoga Allah SWT panjangkan usia saya utk terus berbakti kepada mereka & membuat mereka bahagia.. saya tau.. mungkin ini salah satu Ujian Allah SWT kpd saya.. saya da berjaya mengharungi segala ujian sebelum ini.. dan semoga saya akan terus kuat & tabah demi mencapai cita-cita.. InsyaAllah.. doakan saya.. :)

p/s: sayang abah, mama, along, efi & ena.. plus encik tunang juga.. nanti masuk scholarship angah belanja.. hopefully early January.. ;)

~ Words to say I Love You~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

the first time I see the book at BIG BAD WOLF, terus grab..hehe.. and here one of the poem that really captured my heart.. read those below.. ;)

LOVE is a temporary madness...

It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides..

And when it subsides...

You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together..

That it is inconceivable that you should ever PART..

We had roots that grew towards each other underground..

And when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches..

We found that we were ONE tree..and not TWO.. 

Louis de Bernie'res (1954)

~15/12/12~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

15/12/12.. bersamaan 1/2/34 hijrah.. definitely Allah SWT plan is the greatest.. cantek sgt tarikh bulan Islam ni..hehe... 

one of the biggest step in my life.. hopefully this is the right & the best decision.. i'm engaged to someone now.. Mohd Khairul Hafiz Bin Muda..officially my fiancee now.. Alhamdulillah.. jom tgk gambar teaser.. ;)

 my mini pelamin designed by Butik Iman Hanny 2U.. (^_^)

Candy Buffet & Doorgifts by Arinah's Collection & Wedding Doorgifts

love the doorgifts.. ;)

 me only with the DAIS.. (^_^)

 with my BFF.. Nur Izzati.. ;)

with faz & zati.. (^_^)

 with lovely cousin & aunt.. ;)

with ma cousin Along Yam.. :D

with mama abah.. ;)

 with toki & tok.. :)

with the hantaran.. my future mom in law berkenan gile kat handbag tu..hehe







till then, bye bye.. (^_^)

Feel So Close

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

i love this song before...

& i did love this song more coz it was played in The Vampire Diaries..OOHH!! Damon Salvatore...

hewhewhew.. :P

whenever i heard this song, i feel joy.. released stress.. ;)

~5 Hari lagi~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

da bersawang belog i.. kasihan..hehe.. nak buat mcm mana tuan empunya diri sangat bz skrg.. sampai masuk tahun 2013 kot bz.. :P

lagi 5 hari...tik tok..tik tok...rasa cepatnya masa berlalu..

xtau lah nak rasa apa.. berdebor??takut?? time hari kejadian kot baru terasa..hehe..

yang penting, orang lain yg terlebey excited..hahaha..

me??

x sempat nak berfikir...bz yg amat.. berusaha menyiapkan segala kerja secepat mungkin sebelum balik bercuti..tapi tetiba dpt news kena buat artikel pasal conference CAFE i pulak utk newspaper.. ok! jom berusaha.. chayok2!!