~Hair~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Hair is very precious to woman.. orang kata rambut tu lambang mahkota wanita.. & mostly lelaki prefer wanita yg berambut panjang lg mengurai.. seperti gadis-gadis rejoice & pantene.. btui dak??haha.. honestly, i don't have a beautiful hair.. i bet people will expect that i've a very beautiful long hair..or maybe a straight silky hair.. tettttt..tekaan korang salah...

i confess that i have a hair problem..it's started in 2006, when i'm in matriculation i lost lot of my hair.. i don't know why but i guess maybe because  i ate too much maggi + drink a lot of cafein + stress in study.. masa tu kalo sikat  rambut je, mesti bergumpal-gumpal..seriously i'm so scared & i thought i'll gonna die soon bcoz i might get serious disease such as cancer.. haha 

Tapi Alhamdulillah, masih hidup sehingga kini, 2013..hehe..so i thought maybe it's genetic from my father (my father is bald since he got married to my mom) or maybe because i kept changing shampoo brand during secondary school.. effectnye gugur la rambut.. yela, budak-budak kan selalu terpengaruh dgn iklan tv..kihkih.. so after 7 years, just imagine how many hair left on my head.. it's like everyday i loss my hair.. dulu masa kecik-kecik, my hair sangat sangat tebal.. hitam..straight.. but then bila masuk secondary school, my hair become wavy.. maybe sbb effect pakai tudung..peram rambut basah2..haha.. orang cakap my hair  ikal mayang..dulu  masa kecik-kecik, my mom always cut my hair to very short one.. like a boy.. bila balik pekan, pahang, wajib pegi kedai auntie cina tu potong rambut.. so, mmg dulu i'm a bit tomboy + ganas..haha.. pastu da masuk secondary school, baru start simpan panjang-panjang.. dulu boleh simpan panjang-panjang..paling panjang almost sampai pinggang.. lepas 2006, since i loss a lot of hair, i started to cut my hair, paling panjang yg boleh pun sampai bahu je.. bila da panjang dari bahu, mula la gugur..tak tahan tgk rambut gugur, maka haruslah potong pendek..

Bila rambut nipis, jarang & nampak kulit kepala, seriously rasa down + malu+jealous kat girls yg rambut lebat & cantek.. it's like rasa rendah diri & ashamed la..kat khalayak ramai mcm kat surau pun kadang-kadang segan nk bukak tudung..coz people will look & stare.. like u are an alien.. (@_@).. tapi hari tu my mom cakap nampak rambut makin lebat..apa rahsia??hehehe.. i think it's because i consume Felinna vit C tu kot.. it's a collagen..since i consume that product, i realize that, bila sikat rambut, rambut x byk gugur.. muka glowing..kulit lembap..plus collagen & vit c good utk org yg ada resdung.. maybe sbb resdung jugak i loss my hair.. so maybe that's the reason..tapi hari tu saya beli sekotak je before engagement.. sbb duit xde..scholarship x masuk lagi..so bila berhenti, i started to loss my hair back..oh rambut.. T_T

sekarang rambut da melepasi bahu..disebabkan curl & wavy, xla nampak panjang sgt..tapi bila diluruskan, sbnrnya da sampai dada..agak panjang...tapi hari2 bila banyak gila gugur especially lepas mandi & rambut basah, agak stress jugak.. i hate this.. so, i've decided that i want to cut my hair this weekend, when going back to hometown..tadi duduk depan cermin, tilik diri sendiri..which hair cut should i choose.. bila pandang rambut yg panjang & wavy macam org buat kat saloon (pernah amoi nak potong rambut tu tanya, lu x sayang ka potong rambut, coz she thought that i curled my hair at saloon..bahahaha.. so do my uncle.. during hari raya in 2010 i guess, he said, wahhh..rambut buat saloon ke??kehkeh..well, it's natural), rasa macam sayang nak potong..tapi kalau tak potong, kerap pulak gugur.. nanti kang botak terus..hahaha..so, i googled few image that can be as an inspiration.. this time, i really want a short hair cut..coz i planned to do some treatment after this.. & mungkin sng pakai minyak, toner, ubat, blablabla after this.. & mungkin kadar penyerapan & keberkesanan produk tersebut adalah tinggi bila rambut sudah dipotong pendek..senang diurus nanti.. check this out:

 too sweet.. ;)

 love this style also.. :)

 fall in love..

 hey, i might consider this justin bieber looks..bahahaha

 love this too..

 and this...

 cute..

this is cool.. ;)

 arggghhhhh.. pening nak pilih design kepala..hahaha XD

since isu hair ni agak besar for myself, i did explained everything to future husband.. for me, sebarang kekurangan pada diri haruslah diberitahu awal-awal agar bila dah kawen nanti xdelah husband terkejut beruk ke apa kan..mana tau kalo kena cerai tibe-tibe malam pertama sebab husband rasa tertipu.. bahahaha.. so better berterus terang..it's the easiest way.. in my situation, i love to ask him ridiculous questions.. .saja je nak tgk respon orang laki ni mcm mana..hahaha

me: Awak.. saya nak tanya ni....

him: ape???

me: Kalau saya botak kan, awak nak saya lagi tak?? (soalan kena la extreme sket..haha)

him: haaa?? kenapa?? awak botak ke??

me: kalo ye??

him: tak pe la awak.. saya terima je awak seadanya.. paras rupa bukan kekal pun..  nanti da tua pon buruk jugak.. botak jugak.. saya pon byk gak gugur rambut ni.. . lagipun skrg kan macam macam ada..yun nam haircare la.. miracle hair la.. nanti dah keje or ada duit, kita gi la sama-sama ek?

me: T_T (menanges terharu ada pasangan yg mengharukan..hahaha)

pastu nak test lagi...

me: awak... saya kannn.. ada parut penuh satu badan... (ok, ini mmg tipu..haha)

him: yeke?? 

me: haah..nape??dah xnak saya dah??

him: x kisah la awk.. nak jugak kawen dgn awak.. x kira la ketiak awk hitam ke.. mulut bau longkang ke.. hidung senget sebelah ke..(ok, yg ni saja reka cite..kahkah)

so, telling the truth about yourself, & he doesn't mind about it and accept you just the way you are, that's telling & show how he loves you truly.. despite segala kekurangan yg kamu ada..that small little things doesn't matter..it's not your physical or how did u look, what matter the most is the 'heart'.. that's true love.. :')

p/s: my younger sister also faced the same problem.. i wish that i get my scholarship as soon as possible.. i wanna bring her to get a treatment from specialist too.. coz i knew how she feel & i wanna help her..pray for us so that our hair will grow more & healthy... amin.. :)

~ Wedding Theme~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Lots of things happened these few days.. & i hope i may go through the obstacles well.. InsyaAllah.. so jom happy happy kan diri dengan wedding thingy bila tgh a little bit down..muehehe

Perkara yang agak penting bila u olls da set tarikh nak kawen adalah wedding theme.. boleh pilih 3 tema warna (akak nikah, sanding, sambut menantu).. bila dah ada wedding theme boleh la pilih semua benda ikut warna tema (kad kawen, design bunting, pelamin, baju pengantin, every deco for photobooth & candy buffet & etc).. i'm a bit confuse when it comes to choose the suitable, beautiful colours of my own wedding.. i bet the other bride to be feel the same way as i did.. i did a lot of survey.. & i love and prefer the combination of two colours.. during engagement dulu, warna tema adalah pink+biru turqoise.. & i'm in love with that.. masa tunang da buat warna tu, so masa wedding ni kena warna lain la, walau pada hakikatnya i'm still in love with turqoise..hehe.. i want my wedding to be simple & affordable, yet it shows the element of elegant & exclusive.. plus few creative arts in it.. kalo bley semua nak DIY..heee.. so that will be the main theme.. dah ada beberapa pilihan warna to be chosen..

Untuk akad nikah, normally B2B akan pilih warna-warna yg lembut.. generally warna white, off-white, soft pink, cream, champagne, peach, baby blue.. nak selamat warna putih jela..so bila dalam gambar, time akad nikah nampak suci gitu..hihi.. nak pilih tema warna akad nikah pun dah pening & susah tahu?bahahaha.. but i have few colours in my minds.. check this out.. 

 Gold & pink.. nice one.. ;)

 i'm so in love with this colour.. so soft & sweet.. mint & peach..

 peach + white pun cantek.. :)

 something rare.. yellow + grey.. look so exclusive.. ;)

i love this colour too.. i saw this colour as a theme of my senior wedding.. it looks so beautiful.. mint.. ;)

so?? what's ur colours?? i haven't decided yet which colour will be for the solemnization ceremony.. but i know it will be awesome once i have decided.. ;)

next, colour for reception.. i love purple so much & i've decided that my wedding theme will be have purple colour.. there's only 2 purple in my mind.. check this out:

i love soft purple.. dusty purple actually.. purple-greyish.. look so elegant & stylish.. ;)

 & i love purple+ turqoise too.. so into it.. & this combination of colours are just awesome.. :)

& again..this colour..bahahaha.. aiyooo.. pening sudah..

teringat hari tu, chatting with my fiancee on fb.. 

me: Awak.. tema wedding kita kaler apa ek???

him: ntah.. awak suka warna ape??

me: saya suka dusty purple.. (sambil upload gambar dusty purple)..tapi saya suka jugak kaler ni (purple turqoise)

him: hmmmm.. ikut awaklah.. wedding kat umah awak, tema ikut awak la.. tapi kat rumah saya, saya nak wat purple-turqoise.. (cakap dgn berlagaknya)

me: mana boleh.. saya kan pilih dulu.. 

him: ahhhh..x kira.. kat umah saya, saya nak buat warna purple-turqoise jugak.. 

me: (@_@)

tak pasal-pasal berebut colour.. & he was so in love with purple turqoise too..hahaha..

so, no final decision yet.. just wait & see..hehe..

bubye love.. ;)

~ Wedding Book~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Sebenarnya tadi da menulis banyak pasal wedding plan, sekali apa yg ditulis x tersave dekat blog.. hang bukak page lain..tapi semua hilang.. fine.. wasting time je tulis panjang2 tadi..sobs.. i hate u blog.. 

Terus hilang mood nak menulis.. pape pun, here's one tips for bride to be (B2B).. have your own 'Wedding Book'.. in this book, you might write anything about your relationship, your engagement preparation & wedding preparation.. you may list all vendors & their contact number as well.. you may list all important dates & events.. & your dream wedding too.. so here's my own "Wedding Book".. teheee..

kewujudan buku ni dah lama.. 26/7/2011..heee.. ada jugak manfaat buat buku ni.. :)

wedding plan cite lain kali..mungkin pasni kena tulis kat microsoft word dulu baru copy paste dalam blog.. :P

daaa.. ;)

~ Change.... Again (@_@)~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

Since yesterday, 21/2/2013, a lot of things will change in my life.. it will affect my life later in the future.. but firstly, what happened yesterday?

Yesterday, i visited the sampling site, an area include landfill, leachate treatment plant & incinerator plant (could not mentioned here coz it was listed as secured scheduled waste landfill).. I went there along with my SV, Assoc.Prof . Dr. Hasfalina Che Man, my co-SV (my SV's husband), Prof. M. Rashid from MJIIT UTM-KL.. as well as his students, 2 girls (Kak Ruwaida & Syahirah) & a boy (Sani).. at 9AM, we went there by new car toyota Innova, official car of MJIIT.. have a breakfast at R&R Seremban, & proceed to the place.. 

Kak Ruwaida, a 29 years old (she looks like early 20's..even i can't believe she already married..bahahaha), already married to a Petronas Engineer & have a cute daughter..she is a tutor in MJIIT, & currently proceed her study at PhD level..& we have similarities.. doing PhD with the  background of master coursework.. she did her master just within a year.. Meanwhile, Syahira is  a year younger than me, & she's doing her master now.. just graduated last year.. Both Kak Ruwaida & Syahira research are related, their research about PM2.5 and PM10.. Kak Ruwaida & Syahira are in their 1st semester.. Sani is the only boy under supervision of Prof. Rashid..he's 25 years old & he's getting married in August...guess what?? he's a friend to my friend who studied in Japan during undergraduate.. so kecik dunia ni.. & his project is related to mine.. about ammonia.. the differences is, he will do within the lab scale while i'm doing my research at the  landfill site.. & the similarities between 4 of us is that, we're very talkative & love gossiping...bahahahaha.. it's fun when we don't really know each other, but we can laugh & chatting non-stop.. i can get along with 3 of them so well.. Alhamdulillah.. Allah SWT always send good & nice people, but more importantly, the one that i can get along with throughout my journey.. happy to know them..

okay, back to the topic, we actually went there to present our research project to the staff & management, so that they will understand about what we're actually going to do there.. basically, we just give brief ideas to them.. & we hope they will assist & gives opinion towards our research.. Sani is the first person to present.. me the second one.. Sani managed to present all the slides, & the staff did give a lot of comment.. but when they're discussing, Prof. Rashid asked me to present first & they will look & think..as Sani's projects is kinda related to mine.. but when i talked about methodology part, everything stops there.. they said, they didn't have any pond.. just tank.. Prof. Rashid asked for their ideas, if they had encountered any problem & we might try to solve it.. they did have problem for ammonia.. they are currently studying the most effective way of reducing ammonia in liquid leachate as they received various sources of waste from industries.. they have a problem with chemical treatment as well as biological treatment.. most of the microbes they cultured can't survived under that extreme condition (too hazardous!)..plus all the chemical were applied to the treatment manually (human workforce which might affect their health as they use lime).. so after a brief discussion, Prof Rashid that Sani & me got to change our project.. from assessment & monitoring of ammonia to leachate treatment & ammonia removal.. & maybe air stripping.. which i will spend my this 2 & 1/2 years in the lab.. Alhamdulillah!! no worry to go to the sampling site alone.. maklum la at Seremban.. don't have to think about safety matter..maybe after this we just went there to take the sample, & brought back to the lab..so after this, i need to play around and 'asah' my lab skill which i left a long long time ago..phewwww.. eventhough i've to do the proposal back, i think there's a lot of Hikmah actually in the future for me.. maybe i can finished my lab work early & graduated for my PhD early.. maybe i can get married soon in the next few months.. at least after a started my project & have a 'little' result.. i'm not worried at all eventhough i've to change my research project again.. well, this is the 3rd time i changed my proposal...wahahaha...so, i'm getting used to it..just imagine i've done until chapter 1,2,& 3 pon.. da divide according macam thesis.. :P sekarang tgh sort previous journal & delete mana yg tak berkaitan dah.. need to work hard these 2 weeks.. need to see my SV and ask her opinion.. Friends, please pray for me ya..may everything will be easier for me after this..hopefully this will be the last time i changed my proposal.. insyaAllah.. ;)

so, after the presentation, we went to JJ Seremban, having lunch at Kenny Roger's.. Prof. Rashid belanja.. sgt happy.. dapat makan sedap.. dapat meet new friends yg awesome.. & dapat tau a lot of info about my SV which i didn't expect at all..wahahaha.. gosip je memanjang.. :P  then, we pray & balik UPM.. 

on the way walking to the lab, i call mr. fiancee.. to talk about everything i've been going through & all the gossips i knew..muehehe..well, dia lah pendengar paling setia.. bila saya marah ke..emo ke..sedih ke..happy ke.. pasal my life ke.. i always kept 'mumbling' to him even though dia layan or tak..kehkeh

me: hello,awak buat apa?

him: hmmm.. baring baring.. nak tido..

me: tido je keje.. keje awak ni makan & tido je ek?? ptg pulak asyik main futsal..paper dah siap ke?  project mcm mana? (terus je kena fire..hahaha)

him: da laptop saya ada dengan awak.. macam mana saya nak wat keje??

me: oh..lupe..muehehe (i borrowed his laptop for the presentation)..awak

him:ye..

me: pasni saya dah tak perlu pegi site da..

him:ha??kenapa??

me: tadi lepas discuss, saya tak leh wat project tu.. saya kena tukar projek.. daripada assessment & monitoring to treatment.. nanti kita jumpa la saya cite detail.. so, lepas ni saya banyak duk kat lab jela..yeay!! macam boleh kawen awal je..hihi

him: yeay!! boley baby awal la??

me: ........... (@_@) terus diam tak terkata..hahahaha

~Uji~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

P/s: Sedang diuji.. moga tabah menghadapi hari-hari mendatang.. 

A lot of things to do & settle.. Dear Allah SWT, please ease my way.. help me to go through every obstacles.. Semoga urusan Hari Khamis nanti berjalan dgn lancar.. Amin..

~Rindu~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Tak tahu kenapa terasa rindu pada seseorang yg pernah hadir dlm hidup ini..

terasa sedih tiba-tiba.. T_T

tengah mengemas barang, pastu dgr lagu ni..laju je air mata ni turun..

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
No no
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

and this...

Menanti bicaramu menyambut kataku...
Bagaikan puisi mimpi mengindahi lenaku..
Hadir cahayamu menari dimataku..
Lembut jiwa menyambutku..
Mimpi kita bersatu..
  Dan ku mengharap
Sinar hatiku bertemu

Kutiba lagi..
bersama rasa rindu datang bertamu..
Diruang hati kecil yg berbicara..
Ingatilah diriku ini bersama
Kenangan itu...

Walaupun ku lihat bintang-bintang di balik awan..
Gugurnya kebumi menjadi impian
Takkan ku lepas apa yg ku harapkan
Kerna ku untuk mu

Apa mungkinku melakari memorimu..
Di wajah langit membiru..
Awan putih tintaku..

Bersama kita mengejar rasa sempurna
Walau hakikat ku tahu..
Mimpi tiada bersatu..

Takkan lena walau seketika
Bisikan mimpi pasti berbicara
Tak pernah jemu menanti dirimu
Hingga kau menjelma

Oh Tuhan.. jauhkanlah perasaan ini dari diriku..

I need to move on....

~ Bila Stress~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Apa korang akan buat bila stress?? for me, i do something that i love to do.. something that can cheer me up.. 

1. Listen to the music.. ini adalah terapi paling bagus.. dengar lagu rancak2 & best ok..lagu slow motion, sedey2 sila tolak ke tepi.. ulang seratus lapan puluh kali.. confirm dah x akan stress...bahahaha..oh ye... sedang jatuh cinta dengan lagu ini sekarang...ahakkkssss...really love the beat of the song.. ;)

2. Tengok TV.. kalo stress kat umah, bley le nengok tv nya.. channel astro kan byk..pilih ikut suka idaman hati..kalo saya, of coz la tgk food channel...tgk makanan sedap sedap lagi menggiurkan sgt mereleasekan stress...even x dpt makan...bahahaha..unfortunately, bila jauh dr umah ni tv xdak.. so paham2 jela...betapa sunyi tambah2 duk sorg kan.. hanya internet peneman diri..tu pon selalu over limit..hahaha

3. Makan...haaaa... yg ni sgt suka... kalo stress, pegi makan makanan mahal mahal + sedappp...sushi king ka.. pizza san francisco ka.. johnny's... nyum..nyum...lately mengidam makanan korea lah pulak.. sejak duk layan member tayang gambar makanan korea.. mentang-mentang la depa pi korea.. saja kasi jeles..hehe..mmg sangat la heaven...buehehe..tapi memandangkan kewangan skrg tidak mengizinkan, maka tahan sabo & telan air liur je ye...hahahaha

4. Cooking & Baking.. ok, lately bila saya stress saya suka cooking & baking.. mengidam nak mkn kek la, cupcake la, spageti carbonara la.. hari tu masa stress nak present proposal, sempat lg baking kek... kek yg campak2 just guna bahan yg ada kat umah je.. muehehe...tadaaaaaaa

 bangun pagi bukak peti sejuk, tgk2 da jadi camni..sedey i tau.. penat penat wat cake.. x sempat nk amek gambar lagi...xtau la sapa yg makan..rumate @ kawan rumate...huhuhu

boleh tahan cantek & sedap..ramai yg puji sedap..siap minta resepi..tapi resepinya x ingat sbb main campak je..bahahaha

lepas da siap baiki proposal, teringin nak makan red velvet cupcake & creamcheese frosting.. makan sket, selebihnya bagi fellow friends.. ;)

pastu hari ni ada tervisit blog doorgifts yg ada jual cookies..tgk cookies dia yg choc chips tu mcm yummy! terus mengidam..hahaha.. tuan blog baik hati share resepi.. jom try..mana tau boleh buat bisnes pulak.. xpun doorgift utk majlis sendiri nanti... hehehe.. DIY mmg boleh jimat sgt2... lagipun cookies tahan lama.. kalo sedap bley jual..hahaha.. barang-barang da sedia.. esok kita mulakan project... yahuuuuuuuuuuu

bahannya simple sahaja bukan? esok upload hasilnye.. tunggu... ;)

~ Zero Mood~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

I've no mood at all this few days.. maybe because of that 'woman every month' syndrome.. mood swing tak tentu hala..nak buat kerja (literature review+ methodology for research) pon xde mood.. everyday i just wasting my times on unimportant things.. (browsing FB.. looking at Wedding stuff.. secondhand cars which i planned to buy after getting the scholarships)... berangan je lebey.. tapi duitnya xde.. sigh! nak makan pon malas tahu.. tapi kalo berlapar pun x boleh.. gastrik teruk pulak karang...makan la maggi je.. malas tahap gaban ni..hahaha

tapi sebenarnya mood dah continuously swing this few months starting from December 2012.. & it's all because tired of waiting the scholarships..it did affect my focus actually.. bila duit xde, nak buat pape pun x boleh.. nak pindah dari the academia ni x boleh.. nak pegi mana-mana pun susah sbb xde kenderaan.. bila encik driver ade ok la.. tu pon tahap muka x malu dah arah pegi mana-mana.. bila encik driver xde, balik kampung, mmg patah kaki.. nak pegi mana-mana mmg kena planning sbb naik bas..tambah-tambah bila time semester break ni.. nak makan pun kadang-kadang bercatu..kira duit dlm poket dulu, baru pikir nak makan ape..hahahaha.. ini lah realiti kehidupan seorang student...ni la kenangan yg akan diingati bila da abes belajar nanti.. jerih perih, penat lelah ni akan saya harungi.. demi menggapai sebuah cita-cita.. untuk mama abah saya..Ya Allah SWT, kuatkan lah diri saya.. panjangkan lah umur saya agar saya dapat membalas jasa kedua ibu bapa saya.. dan semoga saya akan terus tabah & sabar menjalani segala ujian yg diberi.. :')

Seriously, now i had reached to a point of 'tired of waiting'.. sekarang mood redha je.. xnak terlalu berharap..since last december 2012, KPT janji nak masuk around January 2013.. ok.. terima.. until end of january, nothing.. pastu ckp around february pulak..ok.. hari ni da 14 aribulan.. so ada masa dlm 14 hari (2 weeks) utk february berakhir..pastu ada ura-ura cakap pulak sekitar bulan february & march.. skrg ni batch yg dapat surat tawaran 12/11/2012 ada yg da dapat duit from sept 12-jan 13 (11k ++).. ada jugak yg dapat feb 13-may 13 (9k++)...ada yang dah dapat dua-dua.. & ada yg belum dapat pape mcm saya ni.. sedih tahu.. ada jugak ura-ura yg mengatakan yg mana-mana tercicir tu akan dpt around mac sekaligus 20k.. nazak la sy nak tggu lagi sebulan baru duit masuk.. at least masuk yg 9K++ dulu pun xpe.. nak selesaikan segala hutang piutang.. selagi x selesai hati x senang & runsing.. nak bagi mama abah jugak.. untuk belanja rumah.. nak beli kereta..senang nak bergerak ke sana ke mari.. x perlu bergantung pada driver da..insyaAllah boleh berdikari..& nak simpan  duit jugak.. buat kawen.. walau x tau lagi nak kawen bila..haha :P 

teringat masa browse page FB MyBrain15 KPT  hari tu, ada terbaca satu komen dari hamba Allah SWT ni.. beliau da dapat dua-dua Elaun Sara Hidup (ESH)...untung laaa.... tapi apa yg menariknya, lelaki tu cakap, ni maybe rezeki yg Allah SWT bagi kat dia sebab 1st ESH masuk, dia baru kawen... 2nd ESH masuk, wife dia baru pregnant.. betulla cakap org..rezeki orang da kawen ni banyak..orang dah kawen sgt murah rezeki.. tetiba rasa nak kawen sekarang jugak... hahahaha.. :P

tapi soal kawen ni mmg saya letak akhir sekali.. kawen bukan 1st priority lagi buat masa sekarang.. saya nak projek berjalan at least halfway, or at least da ade result baru nak fikir pasal kawen..itu perancangan saya..sebab sy plan nak finish my study within 3 years.. & at least SV x rasa ralat kalau sy kawen.. SV saya perempuan..the other 3 Co-SV lelaki.. SV lelaki biasanya sgt cerewet especially bila tau his student yg perempuan kawen.. bila da half way, kalo ter'pregnant' pun dah x kisah..hahaha..boley?? sebenarnya, mmg nak merancang..if ter 'kawen' awal, kena plan dulu.. i can't have babies as i'm going to do the project at hazardous site.. tak nak nanti baby dapat effect.. so maybe kena hold dulu.. if da settle semua sampling, just do the result & discussion + thesis writing, then baru boleh fikir about baby.. that's mean, about another 2 and half years.. insyaAllah, 2 tahun setengah tu kejap je.. semoga Allah SWT mempermudahkan jalan saya.. dan Alhamdulillah si dia memahami.. i've explained everything to him.. what is the consequences.. kerja fieldwork mmg high risk.. even i asked him few times.. "Betul awak nak kawen dgn saya ni?kalo awak nak kawen ngan saya, saya x boleh bagi baby dalam 2 tahun ni.. sanggup tunggu?? serius nak kawen dgn sy jugak? sempat lagi kalo awak nak ubah pikiran.." hehehe.. i kept mentioning this to him.. dia dengan muka redha pun jawab.. "yela..yela.." hahaha.. comel je.. he even said " ala.. 2 tahun tu kejap je.." .. mujur lah beliau memahami.. thanks Allah SWT for sending him to me..   :')

Overall, saya tulis di blog ni bukan nak merungut sbb xde duit.. bukan tidak bersyukur dgn apa yg ada.... hanya nak share perasaan sendiri.. dan mungkin boleh membuatkan anda yg berduit sgt bersyukur dgn apa yg Allah SWT bagi.. mungkin ni salah satu ujian yg Allah SWT turunkan utk saya.. cuma satu je niat & hasrat saya.. saya dah xnak menyusahkan parent.. tolong sama-sama doakan semoga ESH saya cepat masuk.. semoga saya dapat meringankan beban parent saya..supaya mereka tidak perlu fikir utk menanggung saya lagi.. semoga ringan satu beban dari mereka.. tak banyak yg sy boleh bantu..insyaAllah semoga lepas ini akan diberi peluang utk membahagiakan mama abah walau x seberapa..sekarang byk dirundung rasa bersalah..Tahu x feeling seolah-olah yg kamu ini anak yg membebankan parent? yang dah besar gedabak tapi still parent tanggung? yang x boleh buat apa-apa to make your parent happy? give them some money or belanja necessary things?? kalo paham, bagus la.. 

Till then, take care people.. semoga semuanya baik-baik sahaja.. doakan yg terbaik utk saya.. insyaAllah, saya doakan yg terbaik utk anda juga..dear Allah SWT,  please give my mood back.. so that i still keep on track chasing after my dream.. Ameen

~Success~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

"7 secrets of successs you can
find them in ur room"

1. Roof says: aim high.

2. Fan says: be cool.

3. Clock says: every min is
precious.

4. Mirror says: reflect before you
act.

5. Window says: see the world.

6. Calender says: be upto date

7. Door says: don't miss the oppurtunity.!!

 

 

this is awesome! :)

~Niat~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Dalam setiap apa yg kita lakukan dlm hidup ni, semuanya bergantung kepada niat kita.. Niat & Nawaitu kita hanya Allah SWT yang tahu..sebab ianya terletak jauh di lubuk sanubari kita.. even seorang manusia yg paling baik dengan kita pun tidak akan dapat membaca & memahami kita.. walau kadang-kadang manusia suka membuat tafsiran sendiri, saya percaya.. jika kita berniat  baik, Allah SWT akan membalas dgn perkara yg baik-baik..

"Seorang muslim itu adalah saudara muslim lainnya, dia tidak boleh menzalimi dan menghinanya. Barang siapa yang membantu keperluan saudaranya, maka Allah akan memenuhi keperluannya. Barang siapa yang melapangkan satu kesusahan seorang muslim, maka Allah akan melapangkan satu kesusahan di antara kesusahan-kesusahan hari kiamat nanti. Dan barang siapa yang menutupi aib seorang muslim, maka Allah akan menutupi aibnya pada hari kiamat."

HR. Ibnu Umar Ra. Kitab Sahih Muslim: 4677).

Today,  one of my primary school friend was very happy.. i just can help her a bit.. the rest, she had to strive on her own.. when we help others, insyaAllah, Allah SWT will help us.. i believe that..  semoga urusan kalian semua dipermudahkan.. Amin.. :)

~Memory~

Hi & Assalamualaikum...

I'm quite busy this week.. filling up the form for UPM Research Grant (RUGS) for my study.. hopefully will get approval for 15K..this money will be used for buying the equipments for the research project, attending the conference, claim the mileage later since i've to move around a lot as my project will be based at Seremban & etc.. Alhamdulillah, everything was done.. hopefully, my SV will approved & then i didn't need to alter anything..just proceed to the next stage.. may Allah SWT ease my way.. Amin..

Tomorrow, we will have a 'spring-cleaning' at our lab.. as after Chinese New Year we are going to see some demonstration from the supplier on how to use the fumes which is just installed in our lab.. our lab nowadays is totally a mess as some renovations had been done few months before.. dust is everywhere.. Ros (my labmate) and me are the only girls that will involve.. there will be 5 other technicians & a male labmate..hope everything will be smooth & done tomorrow as our SV had warned us, everything must be ready before 18th Feb 2013 (new semester started).. 'Baiklah!'

Now, i'm  just browsing the old pictures of mine, and hey, i found few pictures which are quite interesting... heeee

this is us.. in 2008.. during his sister's wedding.. :)

this is us in 2009...dating at A&W with my brother & sister..

this is us in 2010..during my final year undergraduate at UMT.. we're in Pantai Teluk Ketapang.. ;)

us during his undergraduate convocation in 2011.. (^_^)

us in 2012.. during my master convocation.. ;)

this is us during our engagement day... 15/12/12.. :D

how time flies... & how we changed overtime.. this is called evolution...muehehe

saya makin gemuk..okbai.. :P

~ Jodoh ~

Hi & Assalamualaikum..

Today saya nak cakap pasal jodoh.. setiap orang telah ada jodoh masing-masing & telah ditetapkan oleh Allah SWT masa kita dalam kandungan ibu lagi.. even rezeki, berapa orang anak, bercerai atau pun tidak, semua dah ditentukan.. but we definitely don't know when, where & how it will happened...ada orang jodohnya cepat..ada orang jodohnya lambat.. ada orang elok cara pertemuan dgn jodohnya.. ada orang tidak.. ada orang kenal more than 5-8 years, bercinta bagai nak rak, tapi last-last kawen dgn orang lain..  ada orang bercinta sampai bertunang, last-last x jadi kawen...ada orang bercinta dgn orang lain, bertunang dgn orang lain & berkahwin pun dgn orang lain..ada orang kawen, then cerai & kawen dgn orang lain..ada orang tu dah bertunang, tunggu masa nak akad nikah je, tetiba tunang meninggal excident.. paling sedih, ada yang baru akad nikah, meninggal sbb excident  lepas majlis akad nikah (last 2 stories tu saya ada baca dalam newspaper).. sedih gila kot.. cuba bayang menda tu jadi kat diri kita.. xtau kuat ke tak nak terima dugaan macam tu.. Nauzubillah... macam-macam cerita kan..so, pasal soal jodoh ni, semua tu kita mmg tak tau bukan? we cannot expect what will happened in the future..sekarang tgh bahagia mmg la x rasa apa.. even kentut pun wangi *orang cakap lah..haha*.. cuba kalau gado @ dugaan melanda, dah clash, semua busuk..berdendam sampai mati.. x giteww??

Ternampak ada orang post kat FB hari tu.. This is definitely "Jodoh".. after 53 years kot baru kawen.. i guess pak cik & mak cik ni bercinta, putus tunang & then kawen ngan orang lain.. pastu pasangan masing-masing da xde, tetiba lepas 53 tahun setelah ber anak cucu bagai, terjumpa balik.. "eehh?? kau senah?? jom kawen?? " *bahahaha*

Saya tahu ramai lagi rakan-rakan saya sedang menunggu jodoh mereka.. ada yang ternanti-nanti "Prince Charming".. ada yg menanti 'Mr. Perfect'.. ada yang menanti 'Dream Guy'.. perempuan ni taste dia macam macam kot.. kadang-kadang x boleh nak expect..haha..ada yang jenis extreme sket, da siap tetapkan benchmark da  utk bakal suami dia.. bakal suami tu mesti hensem macam artis korea.. rambut ala-ala kpop.. kulit putih menggebu.. x hisap rokok.. pandai main gitar.. nak lelaki yang main gym badan berketak-ketak *eeeuuwww..saya geli..haha".. nak lelaki yg keje pakai uniform sbb nampak smart & hensem..stylo macam retissss.. berduit.. keje engineer.. doctor..ada jugak yg suka lelaki kulit sawo matang, macho katanya.. x mainlah yg putih melepak sbb nampak mcm gay...hahahaha..macam-macam lagi lah.. but 1 my advice for you girls, jangan terlalu berharap @ memilih @ menunggu that 'Prince Charming', 'Mr.Perfect' & 'Dream Guy' because they actually DON'T EXIST.. please realize that.. tak semua yang kita nak tu, kita akan dapat.. and nobody is perfect.. they just normal human being that will make mistakes also..kalo nak tunggu jugak, cerewet sangat, bila da jadi andartu nanti jangan nak menyesal uolllssssss.. :P

 

Dan saya juga tau ramai di kalangan kawan-kawan saya yang da bercouple lama, da masuk 4-8 years of relationship, still in just "BF-GF relationship" stage, are worried about her future.. tambah-tambah bila tengok lepas sorang-sorang kawan-kawan perempuan dia da bertunang, da nak kawen, da kawen, tengah pregnant or dah ada baby..bila bukak FB je naik dekat home page tu gambar bertunang or kawen kawan-kawan mesti ada monolog hati " Jelesnya tgk orang lain da bertunang..bilalah giliran aku.." or " sakit hatinya tgk orang bahagia.. bila aku nak bahagia macam mereka" or "eleh, over tayang-tayang gambar tunang..update status bahagia..geli geleman aku baca..baru tunang je pon" *sambil buat muka duckface*.. then, ada jugak yang jenis macam ni.. tgk gambar tunang kawan, terus taip SMS kat boyfriend.. "jelesnya tgk orang tunang & kawen. kita ni bile laa" *ayat merajuk berbaur meraih simpati dari boyfriend.. haha* atau pun. " you.sampai bile kita nak macam ni? xkan nak jadi kekasih je? bile u nak tunang ngan i? kawan2 i semua da tunang. i stress tau!!' kalau u x pinang i next month, kita putus *pasal geram & sakit hati tgk org lain da tunang & bahagia, boyfriend jd mangsa..haha*...  admit it girls.. . 

 

 

 if it's meant to be, it will be.. (^_^)

 

 

 

Nasihat saya to u girls, jangan get stress.. jangan get jealous.. hidup macam biasa..live life to the fullest.. let it happened naturally... x payah merancang sgt.. x pyh berharap sgt.. kalo mmg da tertulis jodoh awk dengan dia, xkan kemana nya..percayalah.. dan jangan paksa2 boyfriend anda.. sbb lelaki ni lagi dipaksa, lagi dorang x suka sebenarnya.. kecuali certain certain lelaki yg betul-betul takut kehilangan perempuan yang dia sayang tu, dia akan bertindak..jumpa parents perempuan tu.. suka datang umah family perempuan.. bawak family lelaki bertemu family perempuan.. setiap org da ditetapkan rezeki masing2.. kita kena sabar..terima qada' & qadar Allah SWT.. rezeki, ajal maut kita berbeza..sbb tu ade orang yg jodohnya awl, ada yang lambat.. perempuan suka lelaki yg komited dalam hubungan.. yg nampak masa depan.. yang nampak flow hubungan tu sampai ke tahap mana.. 

 

 

 

Perempuan akan bosan menunggu & menganggap lelaki tersebut tidak serius dalam hubungan mereka jika lelaki mengelak  bila cakap bab pertunangan or perkahwinan.. sebab tu ada perempuan yg akan tinggalkan lelaki even bertahun-tahun couple sbb penat menunggu lelaki bertindak & lebih rela mengikut aturan keluarga.. dan ada juga lelaki yg akan mengelak bila anda bercakap keseriusan dalam perhubungan (getting engaged @ married).. ada banyak sebab.. pertama, lelaki tersebut belum stabil..mungkin belum bersedia dari segi kewangan mahupun karier.. kedua, lelaki tersebut belum bersedia untuk berkomitmen.. maksudnya dia nak enjoy single life dulu, kumpul duit, beli kereta idaman.. nak enjoy flirting with many girls as he can while single..then baru pilih yg terbaik utk jadi bini.. ada jugak yg flirt ngan perempuan x brape baik, tapi ada girlfriend yg baik wat simpanan utk jadi bini.. ada okay..guys like this exist & i've met few of them..  depan girlfren bukan main baik, girlfren pula baik sangat-sangat (ada yg alim lagi) duk percaya kat boyfren 100%, tapi kat belakang girlfren duk flirting ngan berpuluh-puluh perempuan..skandal sana..skandal sini..lelaki ni suka bila dia rasa dia ni "hot guy".. dikejar-kejar perempuan.. please admit it guys! lagi x malu boyfren dia kaki kikis duit perempuan.. pinjam duit ngan perempuan lain, then bawak girlfren dia pegi dating.. hahaha.. ada juga lelaki yang mengelak bila girlfren ajak utk serius sbb maybe dalam hati lelaki tu ada seseorang yg istimewa bertakhta di situ..anda mungkin x tahu girls..tapi ini mungkin terjadi.. mungkin si lelaki sukar melupakan ex-girl or mencintai seseorang yg x mungkin menjadi milik dirinya.. mungkin si lelaki berbelah bahagi or takut tersalah buat keputusan.. tambah tambah bila si lelaki mengemukakan pelbagai alasan.. menolak or jarang mahu bertemu keluarga perempuan..this is true story girl.. sebab tu perempuan, jangan mudah percaya.. lelaki sukar utk setia apatah lagi bila perhubungan jarak jauh..bila anda ajak bertunang @ kahwin, mesti mcm2 alasan dia bagi..or mesti dia memberi janji manis utk memujuk.. "nanti kita xyah tunang2..kita kawen je terus.. abang bg 20K kat sayang ehh?" bahahaha..well, pompuan kan senang cair & mudah dipujuk.. hehe.. nasihat saya, please get rid from this type of guy.. coz actually you deserved a better person.. :)

 

Kalau ada orang tanya saya, best x jadi tunang orang?? saya akan jawab "Biasa je".. sbb for me it just a relationship between GF & BF tapi dah naik satu level which semua org tau, especially all family member & other guys x boleh pergi masuk meminang perempuan itu.. that's all.. batas pertunangan masih sama mcm jadi GF-BF.. so korang xyah la rushing2 sgt okehh.. nanti banyak benda terbatas nak buat.. pegi mana mana kena bgtau.. nak flirt pon da x boleh... bahahaha.. :P Honestly, even dalam stage bergelar 'tunangan orang' ni pun saya takut.. macam-macam boleh terjadi.. but i'll just move according to the flow.. selagi tidak terlafaznya "Ijab & Kabul" itu, selagi tiada "Akad Nikah", selagi itu saya tidak akan berharap 100%, mempercayai 100%, setia 100%, dan sayang 100%.. itu prinsip saya..sebab andai kata Allah SWT tetapkan  tiada jodoh antara kami, saya tidak akan terlalu kecewa @ berpatah arang @ frust menonggeng... apa-apa pun benda ni semua, it actually will come naturally.. seriously.. bila kita berharap sangat, kadang-kadang benda tu payah nak dapat & jadi.. baik kita redha sahaja & biar masa yg tentukan.. macam kisah engagement saya hari tu.. *refer previous entry ok*

And kadang-kadang tu, in our life, we met someone that we feel like they are our soulmate.. mcm minat sama.. hobi sama..perangai lebih kurang sama.. even we can be ourselves when met each other..pastu macam ada telepati..bila kita rindu dia, ehhh, tetiba msj dari dia masuk.. wahh!! jodoh aku ni.. *exaggerated semacam* .. but it's like impossible for you to be with them.. &  i always asked myself.."I don't understand why destiny allowed some people to meet, when there's no way for them to be together..." *sigh isn't it??*

 

 

 

i think this quote is quite true.. yes.. there will be one guy that always be in a girl's heart..

the one she can't forget forever.. :)

  

But then i know & realized that Allah SWT is the best planner.. He knows what is the best & what suits me well..setiap Qada' & Qadar yang Allah SWT tetapkan, kita kena redha.. walau apa pun yang terjadi, kita kena belajar utk menerima & redha.. ada hikmah & sebab di atas setiap yang berlaku dalam hidup kita.. kadang-kadang, mula-mula hidup kita susah..mana tau tetiba jadi jutawan? kadang-kadang kita kerja cabuk je, tapi sbb kita ikhlas Allah SWT nak bagi rezeki yang x disangka, mana kita tau kan? tak kira la dalam urusan jodoh, kehidupan seharian, malah rezeki sekalipun.. 

 

 

 

 

So, I just can pray that semoga segala urusan hidup, rezeki, this jodoh thing will end in a good way.. & insyaAllah will live happily everafter, here & hereafter until Jannah..saya tidak mengharapkan seorang lelaki yang Alim untuk jadi imam saya.. cukup sekadar yang boleh membantu & membawa saya ke syurga.. saya banyak sgt kelemahan.. & saya cuma berharap si dia akan menerima saya seadanya.. :)

♥ Allah S.W.T berfirman :

 

 "Perempuan yang jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat dan lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan yang jahat, perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik dan lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik... (an-Nur:26)

 

♥ Dalam erti kata lain :

♥ Siapa pasangan kita adalah siapa diri kita... ♥

 

 

Wallahualam..